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I don't know what you are playing currently, or if you are still playing. or what kind of games is your type, but if you played Warhammer, I reckon you meant Warhammer 40k, it's more popular among young ones, i preferred Warhammer Fantasy, since it's more reliant on good tactics than luck in throwing dices.

My recent challenges:

Battletech, a nicely done successor to Mechcommander. Though after completing main campaign there isn't much else to do, and second time it's not as captivating as the first time.

I played Battle Brothers for over a year, and I'm still unable to kill kraken on expert without loses, it's infuriating.

Half a year ago I discovered Urtuk: The Desolation, advertised as the most difficult game you will ever play, highest difficulty only for insane and suicidal. I cracked it already, but I have to say that advertisment is fully warranted, the amount of swearing I did playing it is unbelievable.

I recommend trying them all.

I only eat vegetables with meat.

maybe next time, it's not always polish food, i know many receipes, including vegan and vegetarian

When are you making some nice Polish food!?

Sorry, 1234, I've been holding back on reading this post because of its title. There's something psychologically jarring to me about the wrong spelling of a very common word. It becomes a major distraction for me.

I miss chefing

I had  a job as a KP, lasted 2 months, pretending to be friendly while making jokes about autistic people.

I am stuck with minimum wage jobs too, qualifications isn't enough top get a good job, you need experience too.

but I do like cooking so I make dinner parties for my friends, 

Yeah definitely typing is better than writing by hand wieredly I can paint better than I can right as my hand righting is terrible but typing I can more or less do without even looking at the key board.

true that I can only manage with seeing my mates once a week for a few hours but after that I like to be myself. I find a drink at the end of week helps numb my brain so I stop over thinking and worrying about stuff. Find it easier interacting with people over messanger or something as it's less draining. Drink also helps me tollerate people better too. Not that I'm an alcoholic probably only drink twice a month tbf but it's definitely a stress relief

Of course you can. I've been doing a lot of exams in the past years but apparently there is no cause. It's been linked to anxiety, stress and external stimulation (lights and sounds). There is some trace of abnormal electrical activity in my brain that indicates that I'm prone to seizures but when the drugs are removed in controled environment, I don't have them. I will in 'normal' situations though. I'm a bit undecided on what to do concerning my meds, because they do help me. I've had seizures 3 times a week before and they reduce to once a year, to none. 

I also try to jot down what I think but lately there's not much time for my own ideas. just medical thoughts, not mine own, but school related things. (sooo many!) I kinda lost life as I knew it lol

I used to smoke some time ago but that wasn't beneficial. It did make me feel good in a number of ways, but it wasn't good for my memory, once again. :(  (what a shame! xD)

Started playing farm simulator IST actually pretty damn good 

Doing well then nice to know that some autistic people have claimed the ladder of success

Yeah I know you what mean probablem with Warhammer is I feel I've exled at as much as I can and no longer find it chslanging. Find getting work hard due to my ASD/ADHD but I want a job down side is I don't have the genius mind set that comes with Autism due to my Dispraxi canceling it out. So lack in qualifications and can only apply for basic minum wage jobs which don't really teach me anything I already know and they lack progression as manager pay isn't worth the hours or money. I miss chefing though and want to get back in to that problem is with chefing is well chefs are ass holes and don't empathise with my conditions or make comparises like most jobs due to lack of understanding.

Yeah I suffer from depression too kind of a package deal with ASD sucks really I've managed to get back into Warhammer and started a primarus dark angles army so should keep me occupied. Booked a few gigs to go too. Helloween/hammer fall next year Ale storm and glory hammer end of this month s and Sabaton the tour to end all tours next year as well with The Hu and Lordies

Turned out battlefield was awful more of broken mess than cyberpunk

that's why I don't take meds, all make you slow in thinking, and everything else, and supposed effect  won't happen unless I want it, so in fact this the only thing that influences the outcome - my resolution. and they all damage your digestive system. Occassionally I get some substances from other sources though, very much like Dr Walter Bishop from Fringe LOL

my journal contains all my crazy ideas so I don't forget them, it has happened for sure, but sure sure can I be? if it's something that originated in my head and never left it, how much was lost to the sea of forgetfulness?

what is the cause for seizures if I may ask?

I can relate. My handwritting goes down the drain when I get tired. Sometimes I can't even understand what I wrote after a while! computers are your friends. Lol I started a journal not so long ago as well. Charting symptoms, meltdowns, sleeping charts and relevant days, good and not so good, among other stuff. One thing I noticed is that seizures and the drugs for them made my memory become way worse than what it was. (It used to be great, now it's great for my interests! lol)

yes, living a dream

To be honest I have an ongoing project for a novel. But writing was never my strong side, Downside of good memory. I struggled to maintain notebooks at school simply because I did not need them. And my writing was shunned by literature teachers so I stopped at the begining of college and started to copy work of others to get better grades. and then nothing for a long time until I had to write thesis at the end of college here. But there is some progress, I started sort of journal a year ago

That would be awesome.

Exactly lol except I can't (shouldn't) drink anymore because I take drugs for my seizures, so I try to do it on special occasions ONLY. I've had the same 4 friends for the past 20 years, even though 2 of them are away we talk regularly. Those neverending talks do rock. We're writting (trying lol) a book! Maybe you can try!