Published on 12, July, 2020
Do you get angry? I get angry. A "friend" of mine is making me angry today. If you get angry then this is the thread to let off steam. All those irritating NT's winding you up. You'd like to bury them in a shallow grave wouldn't you? *Hold on there is someone at the door**Sound of man being dragged away by White Coated individuals*
That reminds me of my experiences on a day ward in the 90's. It sounds like things have not changed much. Good old Blighty eh?
I wouldn’t recommend this method lol. I was very fortunate this time to find a team some of whom were very helpful and passionate psych people who truly helped me, this is the only time this has happened though and back in the community my local mental health team are continuing their usual promise breaking and procrastination. Interestingly there was no correlation on the ward between seniority and contribution to my recovery, so for example both the senior psychologist and one of the very junior HCA’s helped me enormously, but then the top psychiatrist and another of the HCAs expressed damaging and prejudiced views. I actively chose to engage with the people who were trying to genuinely help me and stood up to the ill treatment of those who were hindering my recovery. I still have problems as you’ve seen on a thread of mine earlier this evening but I am certain there will be no more suicide attempts now and that is a HUGE and transformational result.
That sounds like i need a psych ward stay. I hope to find a way to deal with my problems that is not as severe as that.
Anger is something I suppressed for years, definitely from adolescence until very recently. I actually thought this was a positive, not expressing anger, but during my latest psych ward stay I came to understand that internalising my distress, by accepting myself as a victim, actually did me serious harm. It’s something I’m still really struggling to express effectively but when done rationally and appropriately directed I’m discovering anger can actually be a positive thing
Didn't they give you antibiotics? In my experience that's the only cure for toothache as it's an infection. Painkillers won't do much except reduce the pain a little. Once the infection is gone then even a gaping hole is not a huge problem unless it has sharp edges, as long as you keep it clean. If it can't be kept clean then it would need a temp filling to stop food getting in, but they are fragile so don't eat crunchy food with that side.
Hugs hope you are feeling better now.
You and your family are in my thoughts. I will send a prayer for your sister.
Thinking of you and your family...
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Hi,
Sorry you were having a bad one. I hope today was a better one.
I'm feeling a bit low today. I saw my sister today, she's in hospital due to the effects of chemotherapy which has pushed her to rock bottom. I'm still hopeful she can get through this but at times I almost lose hope.
Thinking of you Danielle. Always. X
Thanks for letting me vent.
Autistics are just meant to be ruminative i think. So we can solve problems.
Tony Attwood mentioned something about ruminating over having been bullied or treated badly, but I don't know what advice he had to give over that.
Yep.
Inflation is a nightmare here too, with some things doubling, even tripling
Yes. Please do. You'll need to add me as a friend first.
Is it okay if I send you a message as it could identify me if I post here?
The road I took, to Cookstown, this afternoon, to collect my friend's injections, was closed; due to installing gas pipes. Getting back from the detour, to my friend's, caught me up in School Run traffic. Fortunately, an Indian man driving a souped up Ford let me turn right.
I'm intrigued about your line of work now?
Aw thank you. I just can't stand bullying as it ruined my life, so I'll fight to put things right and put bullies in their place.
You sound like the kind of person the world needs more of. Someone keen to right wrongs.
I would speculate that most Autistics have been through a great deal of human suffering. No easy cross to bear.
I'm angry but I can't go into details due to client confidentiality but things they told me about their work place makes me want to go in and punch people due to the attitudes to neurodivergent staff. It's a well known chain too... I'm going to get it sorted though. It's now my mission.