Published on 12, July, 2020
Do you get angry? I get angry. A "friend" of mine is making me angry today. If you get angry then this is the thread to let off steam. All those irritating NT's winding you up. You'd like to bury them in a shallow grave wouldn't you? *Hold on there is someone at the door**Sound of man being dragged away by White Coated individuals*
My Dad was in a Borstal. That's one generation back from me only and my mother has also struggled greatly in life. But she has not struggled as greatly as i. Even my Dad was a lot more functional than me.
Yes, the cards dealt then, in life, were fatal.
Hang in there.
Thanks.
I hear you. Great Grandma was born in a workhouse and Mental Health also runs in my family. The reason is most likely Autism and/or Autistic traits. It's hard for us to cope.
What pisses me off is that my father was sectioned and as i research my family history my great grandfather and my great great grandfather both died in lunatic asylums ,and a great uncle ,and a big question mark over a grand father .The more i research the more i find ,Is this the way old nd's go ? is this my fate ? Is this my childrens Fate?
I think that's great advice Trisha.
I have this try to eat little bits rather than big meals spread out through the day and it won't feel like your having as much and that be easier for you
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So sorry about your home
The house I spent first 9 yrs in is now on a dreadful place and falling down all the windows are smashed looks terrible
I hope you feel better soon.
You and baby are in my thoughts.
I'm really triggered at the moment, which means I want to SH. I get these urges and will fight them as long as I can, until they build up too much. This time it's different. It's coming in huge tidal waves that then fade. What I want to do actually scares me. I had a meltdown yesterday, an internal one. These are becoming more frequent, and on reflection it's always a Saturday, when I think the week has just been too much, then any little thing Saturday and I'm tipped over the edge. The emotions feel like something over my skin and I find myself flexing my fingers a few inches from my body as if I'm somehow trying to grab at the feelings and pull them off. I'm researching, looking for info, and I've found some autism worksheets (I need to get printer ink). I'm desperately trying to help myself and I'm scared.
Thank you. I just needed to get that out somewhere.
Not so up on Nick Cave, but I could imagine him quoting St Paul
Thank you, I'll look it up.
I feel heartbroken that my old home is now left to wreck and ruin, by the new owner.
However, I do realise that my brother and I got the better part of the deal.
Ok here goes.
I've been struggling with depression for a few years. Since my teens however I've always been conscious of my weight and fear being fat and eating too much. I skip meals, exercise to burn off anything I eat and eat really enough to survive as I can't stand it.
Lately I've had dizziness, fatigue and a bit more pain than I should so I got that looked at and now my dr is saying I have anorexia but I might need medical help which could mean admission to hospital.
So unhappy about this. I don't want to go in to hospital I'm struggling enough as it is without being in a strange unfamiliar environment. Doubt the baby is keen either.
I'd happily take some medication to make these symptoms better but dr seemed to think hospital is what they'll go for.
I have an urgent specialist appointment Monday.
Not happy about it. I explained my autism but she didn't listen about that.
Other peoples noise is an autists nightmare
That must have been over whelming for you I'm glad you got back home ok. Try and relax now let yourself chill out
I’ve just got back from a craft fair. 100s of people inside a small space. I wish I had the words to describe the feelings of overwhelm I am now feeling having made it home.