Autistic inertia (again) and Processed Meats

Yeah he’s a good boi, so I’ll only prune the plants behind him, lol..
Collies are great because they spend all their time reading their ‘master’, which just so happens to be me in his case, which is real blessing..

Is that the David Bowie dog I saw on the dog thread? He or she is lovely

Haha! Where are my secateurs..?!

Come here..!! 

I'll pop one on later.

Egg socks on the feet, Kate Bush on the stereo, double lions mane in me gob. Let's do this!

It's a bit out of focus as I took it on my phone, but thanks.

You could post a photo of yours?

But it would need to be in focus

Pretty!! That pink geum is lovely

out_of_step said:

Get yourself a vase of cut flowers!

Done! (in the rain).

Thank you for inspiring me

I figured an hour is better than nothing at all. It was mostly washing old plant pots and a bit of weeding. The good thing about this time of year is that even though there isn't the order and cohesion I desire, everything's looking lush. 

Get yourself a vase of cut flowers! I've got sweet peas,  dahlia, perennial sunflower and crocosmia in mine. Oh and a bit of borage.

I think posting this is giving me a bit of motivation in my day. I'm putting my fried egg socks on to give me a boost.

out_of_step said:

I cut some flowers yesterday for the house which was nice. 

That's the best therapy.

I have been meaning to do the same for days, but oddly enough, considering the topic, I haven't managed to get around to doing so.

Hopefully you will inspire me to get on with it.

Gardening gets on top of me too.

This year I haven't enjoyed the actual gardening as much as I used to (age and ill health I think) and there is still loads to do.

Gosh, an hour a day is impressive and more disciplined than me!

You are doing some things, which is good.

Many a good analogy can come from botany. I know when I do pruning of non bonsai species,  I just have to go for it and hope for the best. 

I do think some of it is about decision making but t's also about bring able to stick with something and see it through! I know when I have a tidy house it makes me feel better. I don't have any motivation at the moment and don't know where to put my attention.

Well seeing as we are getting ever-closer to the excuse to use a bonsai analogy, which I’ve been waiting for a long time, I’m going to use one..:’D 
It is not an uncommon-occurrence when pruning and shaping a bonsai tree, to be concerned or even threatened by the prospect of making a decision, so it’s often good-practice to just start with the negative-space. You remove upward-growth and downward-growth on branches and you remove weak-growth, by the time you have finished you will often see what you need to do or you will have a path in mind, sometimes it’s better to cover the daily-tasks and the maintenance-task before you focus on the big-picture. 
So to fully commit to the bonsai-wisdom, lol, life is like a bonsai-tree, it’s about picking a shape and maintaining balance, so it’s about not growing too-big and not growing too-weak..:D

Yes and I've come to realise,  even more so since a few days ago, how valuable this place really is. We are lucky to have it. 

I really want to go out and get stuck in but I don't know where to start. It isn't a big garden but at the moment it feels too big with too much stuff. I think this might be one of my burnout signals - when I start over analysing that I've got too much stuff and belongings in my life.  I've been doing an hour a day of simple gardening tasks but there's a bit of counting down and then "right I'm done". I cut some flowers yesterday for the house which was nice. 

I don't feel depressed but Alexythima might tell me otherwise.  It does all seem to have come about at the same time as something going on which is probably taking more out of me than I realise. 

You are right to remind me that things do indeed "come and go". I very often have a problem with seeing this "I'm going to feel like this forever!" which means I get carried away in the good times. I do have a different perspective on life now and I'll know I'll always have this in my back pocket.

I know modern life means we never get bored and we actually need boredom but it feels like it's beyond that! What I'm sensing from myself upon reading the replies is that I am still hard on myself.

Thanks a lot for that Deb, there is an equal amount of wisdom and encouragement to be taken from acts of reinforcement too, after all the buddy-system works for a reason..:)

Sorry to hear this.

I was trying to think of some good advice and then DeS posted.

I think that there's a lot of wisdom in that post (of DeS).

Remember that your garden and your butterflies need you.

It's good that you have that interest and hopefully you find it a place of refuge too, as I do with mine.

Well it’s good that you haven’t felt this way in a while, usually people have an issue keeping their positivity going for longer that their depressive bouts, this seems like a depressive bout. But they go as quickly as they come, it’s just a case of waiting until it passes, then you’ll get an idea to spark an interest and off you go again.  
It’s good that you want to talk about it and talk through a relapse when your having it, but it’s generally a bad ideas for others to prompt you to, so I won’t do that. So feel reassured that things have a habit of starting and stopping and changing, nothing stays the same which is a discouraging thought when the good-times are in, but the silver-lining for you is that evolution seems more appealing in these moments. So try to being mindful in your current perspective, maybe some good art can made of it, and maybe a focus can be set for when you whir-up again..