Published on 12, July, 2020
Im off for the summer now and really struggling in that I've been in a complete state of inertia for nearly a week. What's also in the mix is a chronic fatigue-like health scenario. Sometimes the boundaries are blurred but if I were to put my finger on it, I'd say this is more AS related because I've been here time and again. I can't get going with anything for love nor money. I've got plenty of things to be doing but can't start and don't know how to. I need a project to get my teeth into (of which is covered on the "things to be doing") but in my head I know it won't get finished if I start. I'm resorting to engaging with an interest but I've reached peak saturation on that. I'm flim flamming around and haven't got the attention to stick to anything (which I don't know if this is CFS related but I've experienced this before although it seems to be worse now). I don't know if I'm in some sort of emotional burnout because I haven't experienced this stuckness for quite a while. What also adds is a sense that - I can't tell what my expectations of myself should be. When the fatigue is really thick, I know how to pace, but when I'm in this middle ground I don't know what to do but I see this more as autistic inertia. It's also the fact that I see others are able to structure their time off but I can't and I don't know if I'm putting pressure on myself to be a certain way. I've asked for help with one thing and with other things could do with a bit of "shadowing" to motivate me but the obvious person to ask is busy working more than me and has their own stuff to do.
Yeah my notifications have ran away from me..
That took a while
Debbie, out-of-step told me to tell you, that their fish are not-loose..
Yeah.. I knew that..
DeSpereaux said:I wish I knew what ‘Toulouse’ meant in that context,
Too loose ... (pun) ... note I got 'impression' in there too ...
In case anyone is totally confused by this micro conversation, this is the thread we are talking about:
https://community.autism.org.uk/f/mental-health-and-wellbeing/32996/art-picking-up-my-pencil-again-its-been-a-while
Wow, it’s crazy that you’ve been locked out, it wasn’t that overboard, it is frustrated to not use the forum the way you’d like to..
Anyways, I wish I knew what ‘Toulouse’ meant in that context, I thought it meant drunk but that didn’t make sense so I bowed out, not wanting to be a ‘Toulouse’ myself..
That raised a giggle
Pollocks back to you!
Please can you tellFormer Member she is talking Pollocks in relation to her toulouse comment. I've been locked out of the thread (I posted saying I thought the forum was archaic in response to the uploading photos comments so it's probably banned me).
I have never been described that way before. I wasn't afraid to share. ...desperate if anything. You are very perceptive and I sense you know something I cannot see yet. However you are right. It did pick up a bit later today under its own steam. After I had finished off a documentary* it was noted by my lifetime house companion that I had perked up. Although definitely not out of the woods but it did make me see things start to right themselves of their own accord.
*edited because I worry the previous comment together with the vase of flowers will give my identity away "IRL"
Ah number.. I opened an art thread on mental health and well-being, I’m trying to help a guy upload an image, using one of your old threads, please can you review if what I’m telling him is nonsense or not..? Please..
A complementary half is a wonderful thing.
You are a wise and an astute queen. Rare, and impressive........and comforting - flim flam or otherwise. Forgive me.....but I am comforted when I see people whom I admire, struggle as I do, and aren't afraid to share. Thank you.
Calm and steady.....don't be too critical of yourself. Look at the calendar - it should be no surprise that you feel a little bit at sea at the moment - enjoy bobbing around (if you can) - some ferocious wind or current of desperate drive will inevitably catch your sails soon enough. At that point, you'll be worrying that your focus has become too intense!
I think our lives and emotions and capabilities are cyclical . . . Just allow your wheel to spin under it's own momentum for a while. We know it comes good again soon enough.
She's understanding, I'm not understanding of myself.
Gorgeous!
and in focus ...
A bit stuffed in. I added some wild carrot seed heads
I'm the queen of the flim flammers
I'm afraid I don't have anything useful to add BUT I did just want to say that I really enjoyed the use of "Flim Flamming" that really made me chuckle. I will work to build this into my vocabulary because I really like it. Very satisfying words.
Mention it to her when you have a moment, you never know, lightning might strike..:)
I don't know if this is autistic inertia, but I was on the brink of burnout for a week or two recently. Today I'm just pottering around, trying to do some minor chores, but not getting much done. I feel I need to be like this for a while, particularly with work tomorrow, but I'll probably beat myself up when my wife gets home and I haven't achieved much.
I'm sensing furry friends of all shapes and sizes are definitely a boon for a lot of us here