Published on 12, July, 2020
Mine was when I started school. I remember sitting on a table with other children. I felt happy enough but then they all started what felt like a word dance that I didn't know the steps to and couldn't join in with. I remember feeling very alone and confused and panicky.. I mayve had my first shut down. Felt like i was in a washing machine and sound became a background thing. Suddenly couldn't understand them. That feeling still comes in a group of people.
What was your experience?
Yep - starting school. Possibly even before that when playing with kids in our street.
I always wondered if I was adopted (once I discovered the concept). I'm not..but always felt like an outsider in the family.
Last post before I take the dog back.
This look is quite common in Scandinavia and the Nordics. I always thought the women had a majestic, wise and very dignified look. I didn't take pictures of the locals when I was there, but did find this via Google. This lady is really going for it!
When I started school at four and a half.
JLyn said:Well I'm just about to go out with 2 plaits in my hair.I expect im a bit old for that at 57 but here goes
Ah, plaits are good at any age!
Somebody once told me (well, said loudly in my hearing, more accurately) that women over 30 with long hair was embarrassing...
People, there's no accounting for them!
Have your hair however you want.
Thanks for all your shares. Mostly painful memories sorry if I pulled that up for you all.
Well I'm just about to go out with 2 plaits in my hair.I expect im a bit old for that at 57 but here goes. I asked my daughter if my 'tism' is showing if I wear them. She said its ok.Here goes. Fed up of masking, people never like me when I mask so makes me feel why do it.
I did since I ever remember, in kindergarten. I thought I was a different species. It took me few years to figure out I’m the same species but still different. I was always terribly bad coordinated and for this reason also bullied and I haven’t played with other kids in the group. While they were playing together I sat and drew schemes of tram lines in my imagined city or other stuff. Generally my whole childhood and youth I hated myself and nobody ever recognized my struggles and helped me although I’m a female I showed quite stereotypical picture and I was picked by teachers but my mom refused to help me. Only recently I got the explanation of what was “wrong with me” and I started looking for help. Still undiagnosed.
i have only realised with looking back that my Autism was there early on.I remember aged 9 wanting to know the election results .
I don't remember personally. My wife remembers starting primary school and being called retarded by the nuns. So, not only did she feel different, she was called out for being different. The irony about being called retarded was that, at age 5, she had taught herself to read without any assistance and could read fluently.As for me, I was told a story about how I had come home early from school on my own (aged 5 or 6). The rest of the class had gone on a nature walk. If I stop and think about it, that indicates quite clearly that I was not part of the group.
I remember being at nursery school and break time started, all of the other children ran outside to play, I stood still and didn’t know what to do. I was eventually ushered outside, so I stood there. I can just remember feeling that I didn’t want to be there and didn’t belong there.
The village hall had a stage at one end with burgundy red curtains that were pulled back, the next day I hid in the middle of them, it felt nice to be enclosed in them.
Such a good question. I don't remember the earliest times that I thought this but it was in my head throughout my childhood.
I think the earliest that I do actually remember is a bit weird, but it was thinking something along the lines of "how do people get married and have other people in their rooms and even in their bed?". I reckon I was about 7 or 8.