Published on 12, July, 2020
Mine was when I started school. I remember sitting on a table with other children. I felt happy enough but then they all started what felt like a word dance that I didn't know the steps to and couldn't join in with. I remember feeling very alone and confused and panicky.. I mayve had my first shut down. Felt like i was in a washing machine and sound became a background thing. Suddenly couldn't understand them. That feeling still comes in a group of people.
What was your experience?
I remember being at nursery school and break time started, all of the other children ran outside to play, I stood still and didn’t know what to do. I was eventually ushered outside, so I stood there. I can just remember feeling that I didn’t want to be there and didn’t belong there.
The village hall had a stage at one end with burgundy red curtains that were pulled back, the next day I hid in the middle of them, it felt nice to be enclosed in them.