fed up 24/7

Very sorry to hear that. I never came as far as to cutting myself but I had other very dangerous and self-destructive behaviours like, for example, excessive drinking. What always saved me was creativity but at the very bottom of my anxiety, there's no energy for that either. I try to catch the first little spark of energy and be creative, also, clean up my flat, get rid of things I can get rid of... try to reload some old contacts (those that actually mattered). This is how, eventually, I escape depression.

I’m sorry, maybe try and get them to listen. I am all new to this so I am trying my best to help you. 

I’m not sure what else to tell you, all I can really say is talk to NAS and talk to them or back to the doctors and make them listen. There is not much I can advise you to do.

I wish you the best of luck finding the support you need x

I’m fed up 24/7 to,I’ve been signed off work for a week,been given Mirtazapine I want it all to end too,I can’t get any help in North Dorset I’ve all’s have disassociation which is an out of body experience very strange feeling,everybody’s blank to me.I try to join in conversation at work but everyone blocks me out so I don’t bother.I never want to go back to work again I want to be on my own all the time,no one would miss me.I tried cutting myself to get attention but GP’s don’t care.

Hi, I know what it is like to feel that way. I still feel that way sometimes, but when I came to the point that I wanted to end my life I turned to my parents because even though I wanted to end my life I also didn't want to at the same time. When I told my parents they took me to the doctors who have put me on anti-depresses which are helping. However, with friends etc I am still the same boat. I have had friends who pretend to be friends and just used me, they didn't invite me to parties, let me down every time, not wanting to hang out with me etc and when I didn't understand something they said I just reacted how they react looking like I did understand them.

I am still in the same situation, I don't work (currently on the sick) I have no friends, I don't go out and I just stay in all day unless I need to go out and I am currently battling with PIP. What I would suggest is try and find a hobbie or something that keep your mind focused. For me, I am a creative person. I do colouring, diamond painting, drawing and then I play the sims 4, manage my sims 4 blog on tumblr or play on my PlayStation and before I go to bed I read my books. Talk to your parents, or if you can't try E-befriending? I have just signed up for it and what happens if that you get paired up with someone who is autistic and you just email each other once a week to get to know each other and just chat.

It is hard to get over those feelings, but I am so fortunate that my parents support me. As long as I have my parents I would feel good in myself. They can tell if I am having a bad day, which then my mum try's to come up with something to perk up my day.

Advice:
- Find a hobbie (colouring, PlayStation, writing, drawing etc)
- Talk to someone (your parents, siblings, people in this community, doctors)
- Try and enjoy life even for the the little things (I know it can be difficult because I find this really difficult everyday but I try)

Hope this helps, and feel free to message me :) x

Hi. I'm totally with you. I live for the most part alone in my home. Every walk outside is a zigzagging through micro-aggressions. I just need to get out of my flat and my deranged neighbour starts pushing the door opener like mad because he noticed that it enrages me. He is mentally ill and has an Autism diagnosis. He's also a real Nazi. Anyway, I recur to playing video games, electric guitar or just very loud music. Can't sleep 'till it's 2-3 in the morning. Between 11pm and 3am are the best hours of the day. Few noises, very little smell of vehicle exhausts, little light. I really need this time to relax because the light of the day alone is an aggression to my senses.

Fortunately, I don't need to go to work anymore, where bullying and aggressions were at a peak, so I'll spend the days at home with my cat.

That sounds horrible. Have you thought about researching mental health services such as 0800 numbers. Maybe, talk to samaritans or whoever can help with stuff like that? If not, jus keep ringing around and don't stop till something is done and someone listens 

Dear NAS39067, 

I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.

If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. You mentioned that you have approched your GP previously, but we would strongly advise that you call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.

If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service:  http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx

The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.

MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.

If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.

If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open Monday to Thursday 10am-4pm and Friday 9am-3pm on 0808 800 4104.

Kind regards,

Ayshe Mod

The Mental Health and crisis team in Shaftesbury Dorset are a joke I phoned them one day they asked how did I get this number not concerned at all about me,so I just put the phone done,I’m feeling suicidal today don’t want to be around peopleMy GP’s don’t want to know,I’ve tried cutting myself just to get people to listen still no go,I’m just going to keep pestering them.

The mental health crisis teams come in pairs.  And leave information leaflets, phone numbers and websites to contact for help and advice.

My most recent help was a mental health employment specialist.  Who was helping me at a disciplinary hearing.  She advised me to call the Samaritans for help.  She used to volunteer for them.  They are available to listen and talk.  And NOT just about suicidal thoughts.

Hi Robert 

What was your experience with mental health advisors. I managed to sleep but not till about 3am

Hello 

Your replies ARE helping, it's just extremely difficult to know what will go right as everything goes wrong for me.

I'm on the isle of Wight and getting appointments here are very difficult for anywhere. I physically struggle to get anything when it comes to appointments so I just give up with it. I need to find some way of getting some sort of help but it's finding the time around my working hours 

Even if my issues would still be there, id rather someone by my side for support, y'know. X

You are not alone.  People also let me down.  Mental health advisors are not very good.

It's 4:30 in the morning and I also cannot sleep.

Just been watching Buffy DVDs and eating junk food.  Cannot get to sleep.

I’m so sorry I feel my replies are not helping and possibly making you feel worse this is not my intention.

The NHS have been fantastic with my physical health I just feel let down by them due to they way they have dealt with my MH / autism diagnosis. This does not mean they are no good and won’t help you, we all have different experiences. I’m sure some on here have been well supported. As much as I feel let down if it wasn’t for my GP I wouldn’t be here now so I have to give them some credit. Please contact them for help.

I am very concerned with you saying you are on the brink of doing something you will regret, the positive to take from that sentence is you will regret it so please stop and think before you do anything. It sounds like you need help now and most services are closed but you can call 111 or there is the crisis team. I don’t know where your based and only have the crisis team number for local to me but you could look it up or get it off 111.

if you call them they will put you through to a medical professional who will discuss everything with you until you feel well enough to end the call. The good thing about this service is they will then source help for you from the relevant NHS teams without you having to go through it lol again. 

Dont think that finding a partner will make things go away it won’t, i would love to meet a new guy and start a relationship as it has been a while since my last one broke down but I can’t make it happen. If you met somebody it would be great but your underlying issues will still be there.

like I said I am worried my replies have not helped, I am sorry. Please co tact somebody and ask for help......... it’s hard I know, I do understand x 

hi again

so nhs is no good then? i need some sort of extra special medicine. all my friends tend to recommend counselling but i dont know who to turn to. i dont want to pay for services that dont work because like my life, it'll end up being a waste of time and air.

i wish i had a lovely woman by my side thats supportive and helpful but that will never happen. i hear the term "you'll find the right one soon" or "the right one will come along" but no-one has in over a year. i can see my life in the future being a sad lonely old man because people don't care or arent interested. to be honest? i dont blame them, someone like me who's life is pathetic sad miserable and useless seem to be a laugh to most.

i hope they are, im on the brink of doing something i highly regret. work will be fun doing a 7 hr shift when i dont sleep till 3-4am. luckily, a half 1 start but will be a struggle! ah well, my life is a contsant struggle. i have no choice but to suffer alone these days

Hey 

I wish I did know how to get through life, it’s not easy and really do understand your struggling.

i have been in some bad places and the NHS mental health teams ‘help’ made it worse. Things got to the stage where I did something daft and was sorted out by somebody who realised what was going on. The problem is I’ve gone back to feeling that bad so many times the person who sorted me out just gets angry and does not deal with me well at all, however whilst they are getting frustrated with me it distracts me from the road I was going down. What I would really like is somebody who can be sympathetic and understand and I’m sure that’s what you want too.

I replied to you as I feel I understand how you are feeling, I know when I feel like that I believe everybody is in a better place and lash out. 

People on this group are really helpful and I’m sure you will get more supportive messages. Please don’t suffer alone

xx

hi

thanks for your reply, at least you know you to get through life. alright for some.

i dont know who can talk to and to be honest? no-one cares

Hi

im sorry to hear how you are feeling, I too feel so confused with life I want it to end but so far I have got through each episode.

advice I get given is tell somebody and I would urge you to do the same if you feel you are going to hurt yourself. I can not guarantee you the help you need will be the help you get but you will be safe and that is the main thing.

just remember you have a lot to offer and people do care xx