Published on 12, July, 2020
hi
im new to this site but saw it and thought id cast my story. so when i was younger, i was told that i was growing up with autism but they said mine, unlike many, is just a rare form but growing up, it affected my life and each day, this still happens. friends say it's just a bad day but if they were in my shoes, they would realize how depressing living my life was. things that happen are people letting me down in the last minute everytime because they can't tell me the proper truth, people saying the wrong things and claiming they're "trying to help" and arguments with people claiming they're always right blah blah (not saying i am). the main topic that makes my life hell are the tiniest little things that can cause me severe anger. i admit, at times, i have thought about taking my own life or hurting myself. i dont know how much longer i can go on.
anyone else felt like this and if so, how did you get through it. i'm trying to get counselling but its the wait for an appointment that's bothering me. i hate being kept waiting on many things in life. to pass the time, i usually turn to sitting by myself with music full blast, screen brightness on tv's, computers etc on max and refusing to sleep till really late at night (sometimes, all night)
any ideas to help (positive only) would be grately appreciated
You are not alone. People also let me down. Mental health advisors are not very good.
It's 4:30 in the morning and I also cannot sleep.
Just been watching Buffy DVDs and eating junk food. Cannot get to sleep.
Hi Robert
What was your experience with mental health advisors. I managed to sleep but not till about 3am
That sounds horrible. Have you thought about researching mental health services such as 0800 numbers. Maybe, talk to samaritans or whoever can help with stuff like that? If not, jus keep ringing around and don't stop till something is done and someone listens
Dear NAS39067,
I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.
If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. You mentioned that you have approched your GP previously, but we would strongly advise that you call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx
The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open Monday to Thursday 10am-4pm and Friday 9am-3pm on 0808 800 4104.
Kind regards,
Ayshe Mod
The Mental Health and crisis team in Shaftesbury Dorset are a joke I phoned them one day they asked how did I get this number not concerned at all about me,so I just put the phone done,I’m feeling suicidal today don’t want to be around peopleMy GP’s don’t want to know,I’ve tried cutting myself just to get people to listen still no go,I’m just going to keep pestering them.
The mental health crisis teams come in pairs. And leave information leaflets, phone numbers and websites to contact for help and advice.
My most recent help was a mental health employment specialist. Who was helping me at a disciplinary hearing. She advised me to call the Samaritans for help. She used to volunteer for them. They are available to listen and talk. And NOT just about suicidal thoughts.