Published on 12, July, 2020
hi
im new to this site but saw it and thought id cast my story. so when i was younger, i was told that i was growing up with autism but they said mine, unlike many, is just a rare form but growing up, it affected my life and each day, this still happens. friends say it's just a bad day but if they were in my shoes, they would realize how depressing living my life was. things that happen are people letting me down in the last minute everytime because they can't tell me the proper truth, people saying the wrong things and claiming they're "trying to help" and arguments with people claiming they're always right blah blah (not saying i am). the main topic that makes my life hell are the tiniest little things that can cause me severe anger. i admit, at times, i have thought about taking my own life or hurting myself. i dont know how much longer i can go on.
anyone else felt like this and if so, how did you get through it. i'm trying to get counselling but its the wait for an appointment that's bothering me. i hate being kept waiting on many things in life. to pass the time, i usually turn to sitting by myself with music full blast, screen brightness on tv's, computers etc on max and refusing to sleep till really late at night (sometimes, all night)
any ideas to help (positive only) would be grately appreciated
Hi
im sorry to hear how you are feeling, I too feel so confused with life I want it to end but so far I have got through each episode.
advice I get given is tell somebody and I would urge you to do the same if you feel you are going to hurt yourself. I can not guarantee you the help you need will be the help you get but you will be safe and that is the main thing.
just remember you have a lot to offer and people do care xx
thanks for your reply, at least you know you to get through life. alright for some.
i dont know who can talk to and to be honest? no-one cares
Hey
I wish I did know how to get through life, it’s not easy and really do understand your struggling.
i have been in some bad places and the NHS mental health teams ‘help’ made it worse. Things got to the stage where I did something daft and was sorted out by somebody who realised what was going on. The problem is I’ve gone back to feeling that bad so many times the person who sorted me out just gets angry and does not deal with me well at all, however whilst they are getting frustrated with me it distracts me from the road I was going down. What I would really like is somebody who can be sympathetic and understand and I’m sure that’s what you want too.
I replied to you as I feel I understand how you are feeling, I know when I feel like that I believe everybody is in a better place and lash out.
People on this group are really helpful and I’m sure you will get more supportive messages. Please don’t suffer alone
xx
Hello
Your replies ARE helping, it's just extremely difficult to know what will go right as everything goes wrong for me.
I'm on the isle of Wight and getting appointments here are very difficult for anywhere. I physically struggle to get anything when it comes to appointments so I just give up with it. I need to find some way of getting some sort of help but it's finding the time around my working hours
Even if my issues would still be there, id rather someone by my side for support, y'know. X