Published on 12, July, 2020
Lights, sounds, smells, everything is extra intolerable lately. I cant seem to make myself do stuff, I cant make decisions. I feel tired and am getting headaches. Words are harder. I keep almost having meltdown/shutdowns (just today I felt like a meltdown every 30min). Im exhausted
I want it all to stop, I want to take a break from everything but I cant. I have homework, I have school, on friday we have an assembly which I always get overwhelmed at but im scared ill have a full on meltdown because I seem to not even be able to handle everyday stimuli so how could I survive a room with hundreds of students with everyone screaming to get hyped for stupid turnabout dance
I started feeling like rubbish for a couple weeks but then the last 3 days have been absolutly unbearable. Why is life so hard
Took me 21min to type this (not even that long of a post...)
Aren't there other open AI services that can be used to do the stuff as ChatGPT, GPT 4 can do?
Which one of the AI services is best do you think?
I've started to use ChatGPT a lot, ideas, emails, letters even application forms and understand terms and conditions or Service Level Agreement. I've even upgraded to GPT 4
Frozen has herself some firm friends round these 'ere parts.
Certainty is not something often available in this life .... and never assured with a remote opinion !
out_of_step said:Nature is less demanding and a different kind of input so walking it is for now.
That’s great! I love being out in nature too, it is very calming. I hope you can find some nice parks or green spaces to explore.
I find often, that information in "words" is too much to take in. The things which interest me are often not the easiest thing for my brain but then I get easily bored with "fluff". Nature is less demanding and a different kind of input so walking it is for now.
every one in this comment section is sooo sweet
Do you have a SEN/ SEND department/ team at school?
if so you should contact them immediately to discuss what's going on. Any child with special educational needs should automatically be on their register but obviously, if they don't know they won't have you on it.
Sparrow said:Another person working in education here. Who is responsible for your wellbeing? Tutor? Student Manager? Head of House? Write them a letter or e-mail explaining how you feel. There are lots of things they can do to help but only if they know you’re struggling.
Absolutely.
You know I think this too FH.
Another person working in education here. Who is responsible for your wellbeing? Tutor? Student Manager? Head of House? Write them a letter or e-mail explaining how you feel. There are lots of things they can do to help but only if they know you’re struggling. It will get better.
Glad you found the article interesting and it resonated with you!
out_of_step said:The seeking a monotropic flow state to aid recovery is interesting. I have been in this position for longer than I would desire. I am CRAVING to get my teeth stuck into something but am unable to find a bite. I just cannot concentrate to find activities meaningful. The mind and body are not connecting in this way. If I were to find something it would do me the world of good
Yes absolutely I completely understand what you mean. Being in a monotropic flow state is very comforting and regulating so it makes so much sense for us to seek this while still in burnout. I think that these flow states can provide escapism from burnout as the world literally feels as though it stops and because I am so immersed in a task I don’t recognise time passing (hence this could a means of recovering from burnout).
It must be so frustrating to be craving a flow state but not be able to achieve it! If you find you can’t concentrate, what about small tasks or listening to podcasts that interest you?
As a young autistic girl who is currently struggling with this too, I think the LEAST your school can do to help you is to give you time and space!
no we arent overreacting
no we arent any less human
no we ARENT crazy
(just remember these feeling will likely stop, your brain is going through changes and your body is adjusting . . . there is light at the end of the tunnel)
out_of_step said:They're only for the REALLY mad people!
LOL.
I'm flattered
They're only for the REALLY mad people!
Or whichever non PC term you prefer.
Also, you aren't out of sight now so you need to change your name back.
I know that you have alternatives you sometimes use.
Here are other some options:
Out and About
Out of Sorts
Out of It
Out of Time
Out of Jam/Bananas etc
Out of my Mind
Out of Office
Out of Energy
Out of Pocket
Perhaps we need an 'Out of Step' name alternatives options thread
out_of_step said:I am CRAVING to get my teeth stuck into something but am unable to find a bite. I just cannot concentrate to find activities meaningful. The mind and body are not connecting in this way. If I were to find something it would do me the world of good.
You need a dolls house..
The first link was interesting and I haven't yet read the second one. The seeking a monotropic flow state to aid recovery is interesting. I have been in this position for longer than I would desire. I am CRAVING to get my teeth stuck into something but am unable to find a bite. I just cannot concentrate to find activities meaningful. The mind and body are not connecting in this way. If I were to find something it would do me the world of good. I have felt at sea in this way for a long time.
There are experiences like Atypical Burnout:
https://emergentdivergence.com/2023/06/06/what-is-meerkat-mode-and-how-does-it-relate-to-audhd/
https://emergentdivergence.com/?s=atypical+burnout
These articles analyse when an autistic person is in burnout, but they can't stop 'functioning'.