Confused

Daffodils is funny, my wife and inlaws are welsh lol. No gonna supress my growth until I’m in my own house 

Beware the terracotta army... lol 

so are you going to weed by stealth? A dandelion in a world of daffodils.... sssshhhh.

I like this, now I know I’m an aspie, I need to grow but unfortunately my living arrangement right now won’t allow it. I think I’m stuck in the dark flower pot lol

You’re defintely out of the flower pot now Jason. Give yourself time and kindness

But I want to be a flower pot man lol. No seriously another gd response, thank you

This is a lovely response and very helpful. Thank you 

Us nerdy aspies were lucky enough to find our niche in life at an early enough age to indulge in it - I'm particularly nerdy to the max - but I'm absolutely, totally useless with people. I have almost zero people skills.

In most of my jobs, I've been lucky enough to be able to work mostly on my own - my rules, my way, my space, my tools, my workbench/desk, my computer etc.etc.

I cannot fathom people's motives at all - as far as I can tell, most people are users and abusers. I trust no-one. I hope they just stay away and leave me alone.

It sounds like you just need to sit back and self-analyse and think about where you fit - what's your special interest? Everyone has one - or maybe you just haven't stumbled onto yours yet.

You're newly diagnosed so your brain will be in melt-down mode trying to process what it all means. Mine was 10 years ago and it's a lot to get your head around - I'm still discovering thngs about myself and my strengths and my horrible social weaknesses.

Let your head breathe a little..

i feel like a weed and have to find my own quite spaces to grow and exist. A weed is just an unloved or misunderstood flower...not good enough for the flower bed so existing in the cracks

“When life is not coming up roses
Look to the weeds
and find the beauty hidden within them.”
― L.F.Young

You are YOU.. be you and try to stay centred and true to yourself. I teach geeks and have done so for nearly twenty years.. it is not a special talent, just comfort and predictability with something that is familiar. 

congratulations on your diagnosis and be mindful that it will take time to process.

p.s no Bill and Ben memes please :) 

Hi Jason,

It sounds like you've got a lot of thoughts at the moment. What I'm getting from this is that you're in pain. You want to be accepted, and loved, but are afraid of getting hurt, and that fear is cancelling all the other emotions out. You're not able to love and feel because you're overwhelmed by this fear that it could all go wrong, that something won't be right, and that you might end up getting hurt - so instead, not being able to love and feel is like a defence mechanism that protects you from hurting more. I know what that feels like, and I know that several others feel that same way. It's a confusing situation for sure.

But the first step you need to take is to forgive yourself. Accept that what has happened is in the past, and that you need to give yourself a chance to try again. Learn to love yourself, and to love the things that you care about most in life. And about having a passion or talent, that's not necessarily true. Most have something that have serious interest in, but it isn't always a talent or passion as such. The best way to find out yours is to try things - go around, and try things to see what works for you. Soon enough, you'll find something that you enjoy and want to be great at!x

Much love <3