Confused

Why do I care so much about what people think, why do I want to be liked by everyone but think that no-one does. Why do I trust people but at the same time trust no-one. Why do I want to love but at the same time am unable to feel it. Why do I have no compassion but know when I should be compassionate. And by god why do I dwell on thing sooo much that I end up making *** up that didn’t happen but could happen? Sorry if I’m rambling just confused with what goes on I’m my head

Also last week I was diagnosed with aspergers and I’ve noticed other aspies seem to have a talent or a passion ie computing, maths or engineering yet I have none. 

  • Daffodils is funny, my wife and inlaws are welsh lol. No gonna supress my growth until I’m in my own house 

  • Beware the terracotta army... lol 

    so are you going to weed by stealth? A dandelion in a world of daffodils.... sssshhhh.

  • I like this, now I know I’m an aspie, I need to grow but unfortunately my living arrangement right now won’t allow it. I think I’m stuck in the dark flower pot lol

  • You’re defintely out of the flower pot now Jason. Give yourself time and kindness

  • But I want to be a flower pot man lol. No seriously another gd response, thank you

  • Us nerdy aspies were lucky enough to find our niche in life at an early enough age to indulge in it - I'm particularly nerdy to the max - but I'm absolutely, totally useless with people. I have almost zero people skills.

    In most of my jobs, I've been lucky enough to be able to work mostly on my own - my rules, my way, my space, my tools, my workbench/desk, my computer etc.etc.

    I cannot fathom people's motives at all - as far as I can tell, most people are users and abusers. I trust no-one. I hope they just stay away and leave me alone.

    It sounds like you just need to sit back and self-analyse and think about where you fit - what's your special interest? Everyone has one - or maybe you just haven't stumbled onto yours yet.

    You're newly diagnosed so your brain will be in melt-down mode trying to process what it all means. Mine was 10 years ago and it's a lot to get your head around - I'm still discovering thngs about myself and my strengths and my horrible social weaknesses.

  • Let your head breathe a little..

    i feel like a weed and have to find my own quite spaces to grow and exist. A weed is just an unloved or misunderstood flower...not good enough for the flower bed so existing in the cracks

    “When life is not coming up roses
    Look to the weeds
    and find the beauty hidden within them.”
    L.F.Young

    You are YOU.. be you and try to stay centred and true to yourself. I teach geeks and have done so for nearly twenty years.. it is not a special talent, just comfort and predictability with something that is familiar. 

    congratulations on your diagnosis and be mindful that it will take time to process.

    p.s no Bill and Ben memes please :)