If you are experiencing more divergent and less focused states of mind, day or night, and would just like to have a bit of a 'chat'; discuss a topic that just comes to mind or as becomes off-topic on another thread of posts ~ be welcome here to do so on this thread.
Good morning everyone. Happy Sunday. Today I am getting out of the house and going out with my Dad. We will have lunch out and go look at an open heritage site with cake and plant stalls etc maybe a potter about the countrylanes. Hope you have an enjoyable Sunday too.
Thank you Spotty. I'm sure I saw Ellie a minute ago too will have a look round. ()()
They are not selfish thoughts Misfit, you've been handed a whole dictionary of diagnoses to contend with and you need help, you deserve a lot more than you are getting. It shouldn't be so hard and you certainly shouldn't feel guilty. ()()()
Hi Spotty. How are you and how is your shell.
Been a fast and furious couple of weeks back at work....so already singed around the edges (not a full burn out yet)....
I couldn't be pig headed if I tried....i am far too passive for that! I think i would rather hide in the kitchen when people come over to visit....it is surprising how long it takes to peel a carrot!!
OH just gone to have a lie down...keeps him out of the way and I can get some Spotty time! He is unsure about me being online..I guess he just doesn't like not being the centre of attention and is probably worried about what we all talk about?
How is the bass playing....gardening in the rain..... etc etc. Are you still in a slump....
To quote Dr Suess - "unslumping yourself is never much fun!"
Hope @Misfit61, @Lonewarrior, Deepthought, and Bonniepurple et al are all ok and hanging there..
Thank you for your hug. Big hugs in return.
Well of course the thoughts are swimming round. Why can't I get it right? Maybe I've got it all wrong.. Ivdont know how the system works.. I should be grateful for what I'm offered.. I shouldn't need help and I don't deserve it, do I really have to be assessed again to get help, if I get help will they understand or like me? Why or why can't someone help me? See all selfish thoughts. ...
Spotty I have often thought that but not for me to say but I have worried too that you do too much Ellie. maybe he does his share but it wasn't sounding like that. So Ellie we are concerned about you. However I know sometimes it's calmer waters to do things yourself as you like them and keep some control as you said once but even so it does seem rather a lot..
And hugs and sweet dreams back at you Lone.
Missy please stop apologising, you may have regrets about what you said,but having read it I think you are deserving of more than you actually wrote.
like I said,when I get anxiety or stress I come on here and rant,whatever the subject I just get it out of my head,if I don't then it churns around inside and gets even more mixed up with everything else. We all need to vent every now and again.so if you need it do it,As nite watchman I give you full permission.
you are a sweet thing, don't go into that abyss, I went potholing once,school trip,never been so freaked out,dark,narrow tunnels to squeeze through,the belly shuffle was the only way to move,arms stretched out ahead,nothing to grip,feet can't push against anything,wiggle like a worm. I did calm down eventually and actually enjoyed it.
My hugs are running a bit low but still have a few left for special people!
missy= hug.
spotty= hug
ellei=hug
Tom big man hug.
Oh Ellie, I do worry about you and his complete refusal to understand, he'll burn you out like that. I think you may have to be more pig headed and tell him he has to cook and entertain some of the unwanted arrangements...
Please feel free to rant Misfit, you haven't said anything awful and I feel furious for you at the way you've been treated and lack of assistance. I wish I could help somehow. We have our hands out to keep you from the abyss. x
Thanks Ellie. The kindness I receive here is worth gold. You folk being here helps. I just feel so useless attempts I make to get out of my shell just too hard so I hide again. I turned to social services but they haven't contacted me at all. I'm trying to set up support to help me with social services but that's not going as I'd hoped, I talked to someone and they just got frustrated with me. It feels like my meagre attempts to reach out get thwarted. I like the sound of Spotty and your Christmas. How was your day? X
Can I join your xmas shell-in. My husband has booked the following
aaaaaargh
i suggest we enjoy those up in Scotland ...dogs, open fire, and off grid!
Can I join your xmas shell-in. My husband has booked the following
aaaaaargh
i suggest we enjoy those up in Scotland ...dogs, open fire, and off grid!
After all that shopping relaxing sewing and tv sound good. I've had the house to myself and a sofa day today. What are you making?
I'm okay, thanks for asking. Having a fairly relaxing day, albeit a fair bit of shopping (bought a desk for my eldest for £25 - one less excuse for not doing her homework!, went to the city for Aldi and a big Tescos) and am now chilling with my sewing and watching day time TV on iplayer.
I will just reply here til Ellie starts the new thread. I'm sorry one you are having a tough time with the garden owners .. no gardening in the rain sounds a good idea. The upholstery sounds good. I
ope you do feel able to continue, would be a shame to stop and it sounds a nice size group. But yes I can see storage would be a problem.. magic wand required for dispersal of chairs and art. Glad y are enjoying 
. There is only so much we can take on at once maybe instead of an apt you could send an email to your Gp as a halfway method. I have patches of being able to listen to music and patches when I can't. Led Zep is my go to.
Glad to hear you are not too burned yet, but I bet it's hard. My shell is not currently thick enough at all. One of my gardens is an old lady who can be increasingly difficult and she pushed me past my limit this week and I was very short with her, I don't want to go back but I guess I will. I don't do gardening in the rain anymore so these days I tend to hope for rain on Tuesdays and Fridays.
I doubt I could be pig headed in your position either but with no kids and an over tolerant OH I can get out of most things, I can see that hiding in the kitchen is probably a good option. I hope being here isn't going to cause you problems, that would be horrid, like I said my OH is so tolerant I'm not sure he actually cares, but that is probably unfair. Think he's actually worried I'm going to break.
I've been learning upholstery for the last few years, one day a week and we are supposed to go back this week which I'm kind of dreading. They are lovely people and I think our tutor has ADHD too, we always call it chair therapy, there's only four or five of us and I've loved it up until now but I'm so much more fragile right now than before, I'm just hoping I can cope with it. I hand dye fabric with my drawn marks for the chairs and have no idea how to sell them either so more guilt about money only going in the wrong direction and chair storage issues.
The bass is my only constant, I love trying to paly it, though I'm not sure there's much improvement. Frankly I'm astonished and impressed that I can find any notes at all without looking! Well done me.
I think unslumping is going to take a while, haven't been brave enough to make a GP appointment about ADHD yet and still haven't drawn or painted, maybe tomorrow...
Currently listening to Tears for Fears in concert from 1983 on the iPlayer and loving it. Waffle waffle.
Hi Spotty. How are you and how is your shell.
Been a fast and furious couple of weeks back at work....so already singed around the edges (not a full burn out yet)....
I couldn't be pig headed if I tried....i am far too passive for that! I think i would rather hide in the kitchen when people come over to visit....it is surprising how long it takes to peel a carrot!!
OH just gone to have a lie down...keeps him out of the way and I can get some Spotty time! He is unsure about me being online..I guess he just doesn't like not being the centre of attention and is probably worried about what we all talk about?
How is the bass playing....gardening in the rain..... etc etc. Are you still in a slump....
To quote Dr Suess - "unslumping yourself is never much fun!"
Hope @Misfit61, @Lonewarrior, Deepthought, and Bonniepurple et al are all ok and hanging there..
Spotty I have often thought that but not for me to say but I have worried too that you do too much Ellie. maybe he does his share but it wasn't sounding like that. So Ellie we are concerned about you. However I know sometimes it's calmer waters to do things yourself as you like them and keep some control as you said once but even so it does seem rather a lot..
Oh Ellie, I do worry about you and his complete refusal to understand, he'll burn you out like that. I think you may have to be more pig headed and tell him he has to cook and entertain some of the unwanted arrangements...
