Feeling sick and suicidal

I'm Cookie, hi.

For some time I've had a feeling like I'm not right, in the sense that I feel sick and under the weather. I have a tummy ache every day all day and it's worse once I've eaten, especially in the morning. A part of me feels like I should go to the doctor or a&e but then another part says I shouldn't. I have severe Autism and rely on my family doing most things for me. I have poor diet - likely cause of what's wrong with me - and I rarely go outside. I've no friends and I work from home in my dads business. I just feel like life isn't worth it for me. Why get better when I can hardly do things by myself. And I am not going to change I've only gotten worse autism wise so is it worth getting my health looked at and fixed? Because I know there's something wrong. I can feel it but I don't know if it's worth it. I feel partly suicidal and I don't see much of a future but is it worth it me going on?

  • Hi Cookie.

    Yes, it's definitely worth you going on! You are a unique person, there's no one else like you on this planet. You're feeling depressed, you have the stomach problem as well. Maybe there's something holding you back from eating better, it might be difficulty using the kitchen, stress or finding it hard to change a routine. 

    If you need to see the doctor or consult someone else about your health you should. You deserve help and care as much as anyone else, whether they're Autistic or not.

    Sending your warm wishes.

  • Hello Cookie,

    I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay. 


    If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.


    If it’s outside your GP hours call  111  to reach the NHS 111 service:   http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx 


    The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.

    MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful. 


    If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.


    If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open 10am – 12pm and 1pm - 3pm, Monday to Friday on 0808 800 4104

    Take care and best wishes,

    Elena Mod

  • YES IT IS . Get to a doctor as soon as you can.  Tell your dad and he can take you or talk to you more about the thoughts in your head. Holy sh*t ! is it worth it  ? YES IT IS ! 

    make friends here. 

    You're a skilled optical lens maker arent you ?  Your dad relies on you.  You doing very well considering having severe autism. Think of your achievements. Can you think of a new way of doing things to gve your dad an advantage ?

    never give up never ever

    each autistic person is here for a reason 

    Nature put you here and will take you away again just like anyone else. In mean time, talk to your dad, ignore all suicidal thoughts and instead go with the flow around you. It appears you just need to get out more. Express this to your dad by text, email, or screaming. 

    Sorry for the rant and I shouldnt dish out any advice ,,,,,  its just the dad in me screaming NO !