Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm Cookie, hi.
For some time I've had a feeling like I'm not right, in the sense that I feel sick and under the weather. I have a tummy ache every day all day and it's worse once I've eaten, especially in the morning. A part of me feels like I should go to the doctor or a&e but then another part says I shouldn't. I have severe Autism and rely on my family doing most things for me. I have poor diet - likely cause of what's wrong with me - and I rarely go outside. I've no friends and I work from home in my dads business. I just feel like life isn't worth it for me. Why get better when I can hardly do things by myself. And I am not going to change I've only gotten worse autism wise so is it worth getting my health looked at and fixed? Because I know there's something wrong. I can feel it but I don't know if it's worth it. I feel partly suicidal and I don't see much of a future but is it worth it me going on?
Hello Cookie,
I’m sorry you are going through such a tough time, it’s good that you’ve let us know what’s happening/how you feel. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay.
If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. Call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx
The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open 10am – 12pm and 1pm - 3pm, Monday to Friday on 0808 800 4104.
Take care and best wishes,
Elena Mod