For those who are not proud/happy to be autistic...

Some love being autistic, I personally feel neutral about it most of the time and sometimes negative.

Here you can share your struggles and dislike for autism. 

I'm gonna share too, though I'm sleep deprived right now and might seem drunk lol. 

I wish I was not different on so many levels including autism. I wish I had friends or liked socializing. I wish I didn't struggle with lying and such. I wish people would stop telling me I'm rude or I should smile or whatever, I haven't hurt anyone by my face, leave me be! I wish I didn't have autism inertia and could be more in sync with the world. Wish I didn't get tired so easily.

Guess that's it for now, huh? 

Also, wanted to say that just the act of sharing and being listened to has helped me multiple times on this website, sharing things I had never shared, so thank you!