Published on 12, July, 2020
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Former Member - I really hope this is the booze talking.
Maybe I have read too much into your post, but I am currently feeling rather worried and concerned about you.
So much for being the funny idiot on NAS huh ?I can't do it anymore.I am just a fake.I tell jokes and people laugh.I dont.I fake it.There is something wrong with me.I KNOW it but community Mental Health have no bloody clue, even when i tell them !Dont quote me on this but sometimes i feel like going out there and doing a F.....g Columbine !You are right, i am pissed.I Have kept it together before, My reality is distorted.Booze is the issue that strips me of my barriers.Suppose you will report me know huh?
I do remember you telling me way back last year that your tendency to joke was a mask to hide how you were really feeling.
You are not the first on here to do that, and I doubt you will be the last.
I feel desperately sorry for you that you don't feel Community Mental Health are truly hearing what you've been trying to tell them, and aren't taking you seriously.
For the record, I have absolutely no intention of reporting you, as you have not done anything wrong.
It isn't my place to tell you what you should or shouldn't do, but if you stick around, maybe we (the rest of the community) can help you to feel less alone, and maybe offer some useful suggestions that you might not have previously considered.
I wish I could work as fast as I think......especially at this time of night. Wanna go to sleep, but the light is perfect at this time of night !
Okay, don't worry about it.
Am NOT messing you about.I can Type faster than i tnink.Sorry.
AM not bloody messing about ! Stupid posts popup when they feel like it.
Sorry, I did not mean to offend you. It was the fact that you had brought up the topic of your offer, and then immediately followed it up by saying you were messing me about.
Yes, typing whilst under the influence is not an easy task.
I am not messing you about.I am pissed -up and keyboard entries are hard work with my fuddled mind.One Day you will ralise that i an honest.I swear to God..
I hate to say it, but I had kind of noticed a long time ago that you have a tendency to listen to sad songs when you drink.
To avoid any misunderstanding, are you saying that your offer of a lift wasn't genuine? Don't worry, I won't be offended if it wasn't.
Thanks Sparko.My problem is i drink and listen to sad songs.Bad combination.I appreciate your help and dont forget that i meant the lift as and when you need it.Am messing you about.