God Bless everybody. Thanks Mods. Thanks to those who replied to me. I do not deserve to be here.

Former Member  - I really hope this is the booze talking.

Maybe I have read too much into your post, but I am currently feeling rather worried and concerned about you. 

Former Member  - I really hope this is the booze talking.

Maybe I have read too much into your post, but I am currently feeling rather worried and concerned about you. 

So much for being the funny idiot on NAS huh ?
I can't do it anymore.
I am just a fake.
I tell jokes and  people laugh.
I dont.
I fake it.
There is something wrong with me.
I KNOW it but community Mental Health have no bloody clue, even when i tell them !
Dont quote me on this but sometimes i feel like going out there and doing a F.....g Columbine !
You are right, i am pissed.
I Have kept it together before, 
My reality is distorted.
Booze is the issue that strips me of my barriers.
Suppose you will report me know huh?