Published on 12, July, 2020
Mentally, physically and it just gets worse as life goes on. I’ve had a crap day, cried a lot, I’m exhausted. More and more I seem to shout ‘it’s always something!’. Because it is, just when you think you’ve got everything out of the way something new pops up, something breaks, forgot to pay for something, appt coming up you don’t want to go to, something wrong with health, just bl&£dy something all of the time. Just when you think it’s actually quiet, some idiot will start being loud in their garden, some neighbours will make noise for days on end, someone will start road works, something will be wrong with the car. Exhaustion. I want, need a simpler life. But it’s never going to happen. Even those very small fleeting moments of finding something funny or saying something funny seem so false. I’m so tired and everything seems so pointless.
Now I'm wondering what wish I'd make, before shouting for help haha
We'll probably end up in a wishing well, shouting for help.
I'll help. Though who knows what mess we will get into together.
Help!
I always have a headache and an unlimited supply of ibuprofen in the cupboard for this reason
Haha
Damn, I've typed all the wrong smilies and can't get rid of them.
*blubs*
I am writing that down and displaying it proudly!
Even I understood all that, so Pikl Logic must be a universal triumph of imagination. Or should be at least.
It is a very good language. Have you come across Pikl Logic yet? Though I suspect here it would blend in as being logical, without appearing noticeably different.
And I think I likely made no sense there. But that's also me
It's a good job I can read, Your Piklness.
I'm tired, just by elongated sleep. Plus a headache.
Ooops. Sorry.
You've burst my eardrums now, chief.
Yes!!!! Always!!!
I played 'Best of Bowie' 'til my ears surrendered.
Yes I do this when I work. I have listened to David Bowie best hits on repeat for the last 6 months, actually it’s longer than 6 months I’m sure. But I always listen to it loudly, as you say it blocks out life. When I was my in my teens it was the same, I would never leave the house without my little cassette player and headphones. But my ears get irritated by wearing my earphones for too long. And I don’t like wearing over the ears headphones anymore. And when life gets too much I find I don’t really want to listen music at all.
I can identify with lots of that at the moment. Life feels like a big slog, always tired, never feel refreshed, could sleep for days. You are not alone. I had this before I was diagnosed and GP said it was depression. I know know its a burnout event. Personally I give myself time and don't preassure myself to do anything I don't have to. I know it is easier to say than do but give yourself time with nothing to do, try and completely stop for a while.
As much as I've become obsessed with a band I haven't at all mentioned 40,000 times on here in the past week, I secretly realise that by wearing earphones & playing their music at tinnitus-defeating volume I'm actually shutting the world out deliberately.
Thanks for replying everyone. I wear loop earplugs a lot and they do help. But I also begrudge having to wear them as much as I do. Sometimes I want to listen to youtube to learn something about my earphones mean I can still hear external noises, and then that’s all I can zone in on so end up getting annoyed because I can’t listen to what I wanted to. And the external noise is just a part of everything at the moment. It’s life being too much and demanding too much from me.
I wish I could pause everything and go and sit in a hut in a middle of a field and not have to deal with everything. Without the worry that when I came back it had all built up and I had even more to deal with.