Published on 12, July, 2020
Mentally, physically and it just gets worse as life goes on. I’ve had a crap day, cried a lot, I’m exhausted. More and more I seem to shout ‘it’s always something!’. Because it is, just when you think you’ve got everything out of the way something new pops up, something breaks, forgot to pay for something, appt coming up you don’t want to go to, something wrong with health, just bl&£dy something all of the time. Just when you think it’s actually quiet, some idiot will start being loud in their garden, some neighbours will make noise for days on end, someone will start road works, something will be wrong with the car. Exhaustion. I want, need a simpler life. But it’s never going to happen. Even those very small fleeting moments of finding something funny or saying something funny seem so false. I’m so tired and everything seems so pointless.
I can identify with lots of that at the moment. Life feels like a big slog, always tired, never feel refreshed, could sleep for days. You are not alone. I had this before I was diagnosed and GP said it was depression. I know know its a burnout event. Personally I give myself time and don't preassure myself to do anything I don't have to. I know it is easier to say than do but give yourself time with nothing to do, try and completely stop for a while.