Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello all.
i am light sensitive and have tinted glasses in work
Mega stress with pip and esa it is cruel the way they do it. so stressed you can guess
I used to arrive 2 hours early and say that I wil wait then I got nervous and ran for it either before or during the interview ended up in a heap of tears. I cant work nowadays have too many melt downs and am light senstive
are u capable of going back ?
Work! Thinking about work.
u mean u stood in front of a mirror again
I've been doing a lot of reflecting recently also
i use bricks in pairs beside plants u dont want attacked. Then them over in day and quash slugs against other brick. Also out at night with torch
smaller bottles --- or bits of old hose stuffed with moss
Winters no longer being cold due to climate change. Although this isn't a worry its more a "it's not right" kind of thing.
Things going back even more "to normal" in September.
ESA and PIP and the horrible assessments
much less hard work now that I'm having a summer off, just volunteering, doing programming etc... I needed some time to chill out and reflect :)
Revealing a very dark side of me when provoked (anger). I am either calm or the complete opposite, no middle switch, and when I try to have a middle switch people think otherwise.
Going places suddenly - I need to be notified in advance.Not having a purpose for going somewhere - just going someplace to hang out or chill is weird to me.Not being able to communicate verbally with someone and be understood, as in you don't speak the same language.Talking to people I don't know. If there's a clear functional purpose, as in might occur at a work place, that's different, but otherwise I hate it.Dealing with socially confrontational situations.Social events where I do not have a clear understanding of the purpose of the event.Intimacy - I didn't even hug my own family members, excepting my mother and she always initiated, until I was in my late teens, and I still feel weird about touch interactions with my closest friend of 20+ years. There are other things, but those are the main ones.
my that sounds hard work
Dentists, doctors, phone calls, emails, being in a supermarket, new situations, races and fitness, my teeth, my health (e.g. mistakenly thinking I have cancer or I'm having a heart attack), the idea of getting pregnant, my academic performance, my future...
I try to laugh about it. It's hard work continuously having to psyche yourself up for everyday things, but then... normal people have to go on a rollercoaster or something to get this kind of daily adrenaline buzz.
welcome to this forum
I think u are new
I don't like job interviews video or face to face. Although I maybe prefer the video more than the face to face then I don't have to worry if I am going to get there on time or not. I had a video job interview a few weeks ago. I did a lot of preparation for it and did research on the company I put an application for a job with, I prepared for what questions they might ask me about how my experience is relevant to the job I applied for and when it came to the actual interview I could not think of some of the answers to the questions they asked even after all the preparation I had done. I had the notes. But it is better not to look at the notes during the interview. They want you to think on the spot of the answers to their questions. And I am not very good at thinking on the spot my mind just goes blank. I have not heard back from the the people who interviewed me, so I think it is safe to say that I have not passed.
I've had interviews that started well, then, instead of becoming more relaxed as the interview progressed, I have become increasingly anxious. Aware that everything was going downhill, but unable to rectify it. Interviewers tend to ask unanswerable questions, like, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?" What?! I'm not a Soviet economic plan, I don't know where I'll be in a month's time.