If you are experiencing more divergent and less focused states of mind, day or night, and would just like to have a bit of a 'chat'; discuss a topic that just comes to mind or as becomes off-topic on another thread of posts ~ be welcome here to do so on this thread.
Good morning everyone. Happy Sunday. Today I am getting out of the house and going out with my Dad. We will have lunch out and go look at an open heritage site with cake and plant stalls etc maybe a potter about the countrylanes. Hope you have an enjoyable Sunday too.
Thank you for your hug. Big hugs in return.
Well of course the thoughts are swimming round. Why can't I get it right? Maybe I've got it all wrong.. Ivdont know how the system works.. I should be grateful for what I'm offered.. I shouldn't need help and I don't deserve it, do I really have to be assessed again to get help, if I get help will they understand or like me? Why or why can't someone help me? See all selfish thoughts. ...
Spotty I have often thought that but not for me to say but I have worried too that you do too much Ellie. maybe he does his share but it wasn't sounding like that. So Ellie we are concerned about you. However I know sometimes it's calmer waters to do things yourself as you like them and keep some control as you said once but even so it does seem rather a lot..
And hugs and sweet dreams back at you Lone.
Missy please stop apologising, you may have regrets about what you said,but having read it I think you are deserving of more than you actually wrote.
like I said,when I get anxiety or stress I come on here and rant,whatever the subject I just get it out of my head,if I don't then it churns around inside and gets even more mixed up with everything else. We all need to vent every now and again.so if you need it do it,As nite watchman I give you full permission.
you are a sweet thing, don't go into that abyss, I went potholing once,school trip,never been so freaked out,dark,narrow tunnels to squeeze through,the belly shuffle was the only way to move,arms stretched out ahead,nothing to grip,feet can't push against anything,wiggle like a worm. I did calm down eventually and actually enjoyed it.
My hugs are running a bit low but still have a few left for special people!
missy= hug.
spotty= hug
ellei=hug
Tom big man hug.
Oh Ellie, I do worry about you and his complete refusal to understand, he'll burn you out like that. I think you may have to be more pig headed and tell him he has to cook and entertain some of the unwanted arrangements...
Please feel free to rant Misfit, you haven't said anything awful and I feel furious for you at the way you've been treated and lack of assistance. I wish I could help somehow. We have our hands out to keep you from the abyss. x
Thanks Ellie. The kindness I receive here is worth gold. You folk being here helps. I just feel so useless attempts I make to get out of my shell just too hard so I hide again. I turned to social services but they haven't contacted me at all. I'm trying to set up support to help me with social services but that's not going as I'd hoped, I talked to someone and they just got frustrated with me. It feels like my meagre attempts to reach out get thwarted. I like the sound of Spotty and your Christmas. How was your day? X
Can I join your xmas shell-in. My husband has booked the following
aaaaaargh
i suggest we enjoy those up in Scotland ...dogs, open fire, and off grid!
Thank you Lonewarrior. I know I over reacted. I tried to delete it but too late.. out it tumbled. Shouldn't have sent emails either. It just made me feel like there was nowhere to turn to. Doesn't help that my communication with people about me is getting worse I feel like I'm falling into an abyss. I like reading your rants because it's often about things I care about too even if I don't say anything. Anyway apologies to everyone for my rant and thankyou Lonewarrior for saying something. Hugs ()
Missy I feel your anger, how dare they start all this without even talking to you? Disgraceful.
I did know you were left hanging around waiting to hear from social services,I had hoped it would happen soon.it doesn't help anyone being left wondering,
Rant and rant more,go for it,get all that anger out,it may feel cleansing,it doesn't have to be grammatically correct,no spell check,just words ,I ramble when upset,I mix words up,I cannot focus as my brain is flying here there and everywhere,You can see it in my super long posts,so much confusion in my head,I let it out,I need to,I don't always need anyone to understand me,nice when people just say hello though,no judgement just being there for me, I actually need strong people and people like you who just happen to be nice,despite your current situation you still manage to say nice things and listen. You go out of your way for many,
missy you and me are lovely people! Surrounded with wounded souls who despite their issues are never horrible or nasty,there is no nasty on here. Autism rules.
big hug.()
I just need to rant. Silly really emotional overload. Sensible me says wait but just need to connect. I'm waiting for social services to contact me but there is a lot of demand. My previous contact before diagnosis wasn't great so I thought I'd like help to navigate. I contacted Nas to see if they had advocacy or support in my area.. no they don't but try here. I'd tried here and they were very nice, I thought this sounds good but then... they don't cover my area, I'll contact the team in your area, ok I say, thinking it would be the same team in a different place.. just got an email from unheard of people, no idea of anything about them or their experience or if I would like them.. before even saying hello to me they had contacted the council over my head , no hello, no this is who we are,this is what we do, this is our experience.. shall we meet up None of that just straight to the council who incidentally haven't had the courtesy to contact me. I just feel walked all over .. how can I trust them to advocate for me when they took away my advocacy? How will I find anyone who is familiar with mental health issues and ND and knows their way around the system? Sorry this is intense again just makes me feel what system is there is against me.
Aaaaasrrrrggghhh! I really don't want to do it this year, and I've been saying that for ever. I know you probably don't have much choice Ellie, but it's a crock of **** these days to me. I wish there were a communal shell you could vote for, to not participate. Somewhere quiet, with books and seperate rooms and bass guitars etc.
Happy Wednesday. x
Spotty I was really stressing! I am the warrior defender,wish I could defend you and missy from the downs! Feel a bit useless, I know you both aren't keen on hugs but right now I feel like a group cuddle is in order(well it is virtual) maybe our good vibes will be absorbed into you?
like ellie said,major hugs to all.(it's all I have but I regard my given hugs as precious.)
Hey Spotty. Yes we do. It will. One day at a time. Yes it's good that is being done I was worrying how Idvever have enough energy and stamina to do it so it's a relief. It will look brighter when it's finished but then my bit will be putting things back. I was lucky it could be started so quickly ( slotting me in by chance) I haven't had to wait long because he's booked up til Christmas! ()() () to you all too.
Major hugs back to the both of you xxxx
Major hugs back to the both of you xxxx
