If you are experiencing more divergent and less focused states of mind, day or night, and would just like to have a bit of a 'chat'; discuss a topic that just comes to mind or as becomes off-topic on another thread of posts ~ be welcome here to do so on this thread.
Good morning everyone. Happy Sunday. Today I am getting out of the house and going out with my Dad. We will have lunch out and go look at an open heritage site with cake and plant stalls etc maybe a potter about the countrylanes. Hope you have an enjoyable Sunday too.
Thanks Ellie. The kindness I receive here is worth gold. You folk being here helps. I just feel so useless attempts I make to get out of my shell just too hard so I hide again. I turned to social services but they haven't contacted me at all. I'm trying to set up support to help me with social services but that's not going as I'd hoped, I talked to someone and they just got frustrated with me. It feels like my meagre attempts to reach out get thwarted. I like the sound of Spotty and your Christmas. How was your day? X
Can I join your xmas shell-in. My husband has booked the following
aaaaaargh
i suggest we enjoy those up in Scotland ...dogs, open fire, and off grid!
Thank you Lonewarrior. I know I over reacted. I tried to delete it but too late.. out it tumbled. Shouldn't have sent emails either. It just made me feel like there was nowhere to turn to. Doesn't help that my communication with people about me is getting worse I feel like I'm falling into an abyss. I like reading your rants because it's often about things I care about too even if I don't say anything. Anyway apologies to everyone for my rant and thankyou Lonewarrior for saying something. Hugs ()
Missy I feel your anger, how dare they start all this without even talking to you? Disgraceful.
I did know you were left hanging around waiting to hear from social services,I had hoped it would happen soon.it doesn't help anyone being left wondering,
Rant and rant more,go for it,get all that anger out,it may feel cleansing,it doesn't have to be grammatically correct,no spell check,just words ,I ramble when upset,I mix words up,I cannot focus as my brain is flying here there and everywhere,You can see it in my super long posts,so much confusion in my head,I let it out,I need to,I don't always need anyone to understand me,nice when people just say hello though,no judgement just being there for me, I actually need strong people and people like you who just happen to be nice,despite your current situation you still manage to say nice things and listen. You go out of your way for many,
missy you and me are lovely people! Surrounded with wounded souls who despite their issues are never horrible or nasty,there is no nasty on here. Autism rules.
big hug.()
I just need to rant. Silly really emotional overload. Sensible me says wait but just need to connect. I'm waiting for social services to contact me but there is a lot of demand. My previous contact before diagnosis wasn't great so I thought I'd like help to navigate. I contacted Nas to see if they had advocacy or support in my area.. no they don't but try here. I'd tried here and they were very nice, I thought this sounds good but then... they don't cover my area, I'll contact the team in your area, ok I say, thinking it would be the same team in a different place.. just got an email from unheard of people, no idea of anything about them or their experience or if I would like them.. before even saying hello to me they had contacted the council over my head , no hello, no this is who we are,this is what we do, this is our experience.. shall we meet up None of that just straight to the council who incidentally haven't had the courtesy to contact me. I just feel walked all over .. how can I trust them to advocate for me when they took away my advocacy? How will I find anyone who is familiar with mental health issues and ND and knows their way around the system? Sorry this is intense again just makes me feel what system is there is against me.
Aaaaasrrrrggghhh! I really don't want to do it this year, and I've been saying that for ever. I know you probably don't have much choice Ellie, but it's a crock of **** these days to me. I wish there were a communal shell you could vote for, to not participate. Somewhere quiet, with books and seperate rooms and bass guitars etc.
Happy Wednesday. x
Spotty I was really stressing! I am the warrior defender,wish I could defend you and missy from the downs! Feel a bit useless, I know you both aren't keen on hugs but right now I feel like a group cuddle is in order(well it is virtual) maybe our good vibes will be absorbed into you?
like ellie said,major hugs to all.(it's all I have but I regard my given hugs as precious.)
Hey Spotty. Yes we do. It will. One day at a time. Yes it's good that is being done I was worrying how Idvever have enough energy and stamina to do it so it's a relief. It will look brighter when it's finished but then my bit will be putting things back. I was lucky it could be started so quickly ( slotting me in by chance) I haven't had to wait long because he's booked up til Christmas! ()() () to you all too.
Major hugs back to the both of you xxxx
Hey Misfit, we seem to be in the doldrums together at the moment, I agree that all we can hope is that it will pass and something will shift to wards the positive soon. Good that your decorating is getting done. ()()() to all.
Hello Lonewarrior Just a quiet day at home doing a task then having a rest. I got a few things done so .. good. Nice to be getting the decorating done and the things I managed made me feel a bit better. Still feeling low though but it will pass. Hope your visitors don't tire you out ! I keep reading about your mechanicing and car and tools and it's very interesting.
Still really tired and low so will take it steady but... today the decorator has started and so it feels like something is being freshened up. It inspired me to get on with some washing and cleaning this morning. Sometimes we need a boost from someone else. Yesterday I pulled out a very leggy woody lavender which will make room for my new plants. Need to get digging! . I'm thinking of trying some propogating from the old lavender ; might work! It will also make good firewood. And the sun is shining which is always a plus. Anyway just thought I'd post on the day to day 101.
Still really tired and low so will take it steady but... today the decorator has started and so it feels like something is being freshened up. It inspired me to get on with some washing and cleaning this morning. Sometimes we need a boost from someone else. Yesterday I pulled out a very leggy woody lavender which will make room for my new plants. Need to get digging! . I'm thinking of trying some propogating from the old lavender ; might work! It will also make good firewood. And the sun is shining which is always a plus. Anyway just thought I'd post on the day to day 101.
After all that shopping relaxing sewing and tv sound good. I've had the house to myself and a sofa day today. What are you making?
I'm okay, thanks for asking. Having a fairly relaxing day, albeit a fair bit of shopping (bought a desk for my eldest for £25 - one less excuse for not doing her homework!, went to the city for Aldi and a big Tescos) and am now chilling with my sewing and watching day time TV on iplayer.
I will just reply here til Ellie starts the new thread. I'm sorry one you are having a tough time with the garden owners .. no gardening in the rain sounds a good idea. The upholstery sounds good. I
ope you do feel able to continue, would be a shame to stop and it sounds a nice size group. But yes I can see storage would be a problem.. magic wand required for dispersal of chairs and art. Glad y are enjoying 
. There is only so much we can take on at once maybe instead of an apt you could send an email to your Gp as a halfway method. I have patches of being able to listen to music and patches when I can't. Led Zep is my go to.
Glad to hear you are not too burned yet, but I bet it's hard. My shell is not currently thick enough at all. One of my gardens is an old lady who can be increasingly difficult and she pushed me past my limit this week and I was very short with her, I don't want to go back but I guess I will. I don't do gardening in the rain anymore so these days I tend to hope for rain on Tuesdays and Fridays.
I doubt I could be pig headed in your position either but with no kids and an over tolerant OH I can get out of most things, I can see that hiding in the kitchen is probably a good option. I hope being here isn't going to cause you problems, that would be horrid, like I said my OH is so tolerant I'm not sure he actually cares, but that is probably unfair. Think he's actually worried I'm going to break.
I've been learning upholstery for the last few years, one day a week and we are supposed to go back this week which I'm kind of dreading. They are lovely people and I think our tutor has ADHD too, we always call it chair therapy, there's only four or five of us and I've loved it up until now but I'm so much more fragile right now than before, I'm just hoping I can cope with it. I hand dye fabric with my drawn marks for the chairs and have no idea how to sell them either so more guilt about money only going in the wrong direction and chair storage issues.
The bass is my only constant, I love trying to paly it, though I'm not sure there's much improvement. Frankly I'm astonished and impressed that I can find any notes at all without looking! Well done me.
I think unslumping is going to take a while, haven't been brave enough to make a GP appointment about ADHD yet and still haven't drawn or painted, maybe tomorrow...
Currently listening to Tears for Fears in concert from 1983 on the iPlayer and loving it. Waffle waffle.
You ok Spotty? Have I upset or offended you? 
️I'm getting very lost on the threads!
I like the marathon analogy Ellie. The nested threading is beginning to get on my nerves completely. You read something you want to come back to and then can't find it for love or money and this bit of this conversation is a complete muddle! Going back up there now.
