Published on 12, July, 2020
today is officially the 2yr anniversary of my friend's death, which is why I AM still feeling suicidal. Hi, guys so um I shouldn't be saying this basically I um well I had my exam in city works but I passed that isn't the reason. 1 because my meeting was canceled for Friday and 2 because today marks the 2 yrs anniversary of my friend [name removed by Mod] . I'm crying while listening to suicidal music didn't phone my MH team or anything to go and search for her. bye
I am so sorry for your loss. We are all here with you during these difficult times. Sending love and hugs x
The pain of grief can be unbearable. It will never completely leave you, but in time it will get easier to live with. I am sure the last thing your friend would want is for you to be suffering. Focusing on happy memories and perhaps listening to cheerful music may help, or doing some other kind of activity that makes you feel happy. As others have said, listening to sad music when you're not in an emotionally good place will only make you feel worse.
dont listen to suicidal music maybe?and perhaps your friend doing that has made it trendy and cool in your eyes? just think of it as dorky and lame and that will fix that.
Hi KJ1234,I'm really sorry to hear about your friend passing away and that you're having suicidal thoughts. Please do reach out for support if you can. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service:
https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/
Some other organisations that can help:
The Samaritans also provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with self harm or suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself - call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
You can find more information here:
https://www.autism.org.uk/advice-and-guidance/topics/mental-health/suicide Best wishes,Ross - mod
Sometimes the pain we hide can burn like afire inside.Open up and let it out.
Stop. Think. Stop listening to sad songs and Music. It will not help.DO NOT make a decision. You can have many friends on here that can help.At least let people here help.Just try. You have nothing to lose.Don't give up.
We're here, for you.
That's really sad, KJ. I'm sorry that you're in so much pain, the loss of your friend is something you must feel deeply especially around this time. Take care.