Published on 12, July, 2020
Today was my first day back to school since my winter break. Yesterday I was nervous because I wasnt sure what things would change and what would stay the same. I wont go into detail of my day because 1, you dont care, and 2, I dont have enough words or will to write about it.
All day I just kept wanting to cry and right now I just wish I didnt have to live (im not su*cidal, I just dont want to). Ive realised that when I have school then im much less happy than when I dont. The thing is that today wasnt even particularly bad in any way, it was just a normal school day: got made fun of a little, anxiety, bright lights, loud shovey rude people, more anxiety. I havent eaten anything all day so maybe thats to do with some of it but I dont feel like eating.
I want to do school. I like learning, I like my teachers and even the students can be fine when they are nice and I can observe them interacting with each other but not me. But every time I have school then I just want to drop out. I wont because im too nervous to talk to whoever you talk to to drop out, and I know ill regret it.
But how the heck did any of you get through school every day? Im a bit nervous to post this because whenever I start talking about my problems then people get annoyed with me and stop being my friend. There must be some NT code about how much negative emotions youre allowed to share or something.
Sorry for not replying before, I was struggling with words. So im just going to put all my replying into this one.
@Sam Im glad you were able to find comfort in the library during school
Goosey Thank you
Former Member
Just make sure you focus on your studying and getting good grades.
There'll always be difficult people, but you can distance yourself from them by making the most of your school years. Study hard, enjoy your hobbies, stay healthy, and you'll flourish from there. School isn't forever!
Good points and thanks for the advice
Autonomistic
Autonomistic said:Any NT codes certainly don't apply on here, so feel free to post as much as you like without fear.
Autonomistic said:The people who cause you so much grief will hopefully never feature in your life again once you leave. If you need accommodations or adjustments, to help your remaining time more tolerable, then try not to be afraid to ask.
@Debbie Thank you