Published on 12, July, 2020
I came here in the hope of finding work and maybe finding a reason to keep on going, but there is nothing here. It's almost as if this place is just some sort of front for the government to say they are actually helping the autistic, when infact, they are just leaving us to die.
I hate the world, I've no desire to keep on living nor do I have a desire to connect with anymore as I just don't like anyone anymore. I keep wanting to get a job, but my lack of confidence, self-esteem and messed up head keeps me from doing so. I can't enjoy any of my hobbies because I keep worrying about work and now that my fit note is over, I'm going to keep getting hassle from DWP to find work while I wait ages for therapy, which probably won't do anything for me anyway. I want to die, but don't have it in me to kill myself and I have no desire to be apart of this heap of *** called modern civilization.
I don't even know what to do anymore.
What do YOU want?
If resources were of no consequence, what is the best possible scenario you can envision your life to become. This may not be immediately obvious, it may take some time to discover. If we're robbed of agency from a young age, we might not have learned how to escape our surroundings, find time to be and become and learn how to live life on our own terms, in control of our own surroundings.
I wanted to be employed and self-sufficient, but the government took that away from us. Now I just want to die.