Introducing Myself.

Welcome aboard and good luck with your assessment.  I got my 'ASD' diagnosis last summer, but still largely feel like an impostor.  Things were starting to gather momentum regarding treatment/counselling, but now with coronavirus that's all been paused.

Hello.

Yes. This virus thing has caused turmoil. I find I can't go in a few shops anyway, but with the turmoil now, I just have not been able to go in a shop at all. Luckily my Mum can but even she is not confident enough to tackle a large shop. We can only shop in a small local shop at the moment. 

The assessment. I hope that it is not too long to wait. I am a little nurvous about it, but I have met some of the people working for the assessment team and they are nice people so I should be ok. I am concerned that if the economy collapses I may never be assessed. 

I could do with being assessed because I reached a point where I can't even do part time work in a job I can usually do with my eyes closed... Last time I tried I was getting constant strings of partial shutdowns one after the next after the next... And doing all I can to avoid getting full shutdowns. And I liked the work. I liked the staff. I just was not able to avoid the shutdowns. I then had burnout and forced my way through the last week or so (The shifts were 4 or 5 hours a day every other day of the week) and when the temporary summer time job ended I was in a right mess! I was glitching between masking and unmasking... Hardly able to walk that far... I was missing gears when I drove... I was a mess. 

The big concern for me is every burnout that came through each job I took, seemed to be worse then the last one (And even though I thought I was recovered from the last one I obviously wasn't. Takes years to fully recover ai guess).

But my huge concern is that if I tried working again and had another burnout I would end up dissabled and not being able to drive. Driving is my number one way of relaxing. If I can get to the miles of country lanes, I am in my element. I am no longer "On edge". As long as I keep out of the crowded roads I am fine. 

The big concern for me is every burnout that came through each job I took, seemed to be worse then the last one (And even though I thought I was recovered from the last one I obviously wasn't. Takes years to fully recover ai guess).

But my huge concern is that if I tried working again and had another burnout I would end up dissabled and not being able to drive. Driving is my number one way of relaxing. If I can get to the miles of country lanes, I am in my element. I am no longer "On edge". As long as I keep out of the crowded roads I am fine.