Published on 12, July, 2020
Don't know what to put.
Maybe hello?
I do not know if I have autism. I am on a list to be assessed.
The big concern for me is every burnout that came through each job I took, seemed to be worse then the last one (And even though I thought I was recovered from the last one I obviously wasn't. Takes years to fully recover ai guess).
But my huge concern is that if I tried working again and had another burnout I would end up dissabled and not being able to drive. Driving is my number one way of relaxing. If I can get to the miles of country lanes, I am in my element. I am no longer "On edge". As long as I keep out of the crowded roads I am fine.
Hello.
Yes. This virus thing has caused turmoil. I find I can't go in a few shops anyway, but with the turmoil now, I just have not been able to go in a shop at all. Luckily my Mum can but even she is not confident enough to tackle a large shop. We can only shop in a small local shop at the moment.
The assessment. I hope that it is not too long to wait. I am a little nurvous about it, but I have met some of the people working for the assessment team and they are nice people so I should be ok. I am concerned that if the economy collapses I may never be assessed.
I could do with being assessed because I reached a point where I can't even do part time work in a job I can usually do with my eyes closed... Last time I tried I was getting constant strings of partial shutdowns one after the next after the next... And doing all I can to avoid getting full shutdowns. And I liked the work. I liked the staff. I just was not able to avoid the shutdowns. I then had burnout and forced my way through the last week or so (The shifts were 4 or 5 hours a day every other day of the week) and when the temporary summer time job ended I was in a right mess! I was glitching between masking and unmasking... Hardly able to walk that far... I was missing gears when I drove... I was a mess.
Welcome aboard and good luck with your assessment. I got my 'ASD' diagnosis last summer, but still largely feel like an impostor. Things were starting to gather momentum regarding treatment/counselling, but now with coronavirus that's all been paused.
Yep because it’s typing - written communication I’m fine with, it’s when face to face with people I struggle most.
You are excellent at talking on this site.
I’m a social disaster, so I feel your pain on this one!
I knew I was different. People told me! Haha! An outsider to a group. When I have had to be in a group I do my thing and let them do theirs!
Due to a different upbring on a smallholding, I assumed that it was due to having a different lifestyle. My Mum is very different as well!
Yeah sadly a lot of people dong get diagnosed when kids, I just thought I was always stressed, anxious and well weird with few friends... In the end I found out it was likely ASD, I still struggle but moving in the right direction. Sounds like you are too :)
It is only by chance that I found out that what I have been experiencing for almost all my life were shutdowns.
I have also had gone through many burnouts and each one I found myself in a worse state then the one before. I would just quit my job and then just wait a few months or a year or two to recover (Without an income for most of the time as I couldn't face signing on). I never knew that they were called burnouts. I am still recovering from the one I had last september when I had taken a low hours part time summer job. Not quite recovered yet.
It’d completely ok to be anxious about it, for some people to prospect of being diagnosed is daunting. I think you’ve done the right thing and it will lead to greater clarity for you further down the line.
Thanks. It took me two years to ask to be assessed as every time I went in to see the doctor to ask, I clammed up and could not ask.
Hello :) The wait can be frustrating along with the uncertainty. For reasons I won’t go into I’ve been waiting since 2014/15 for my assessment. If you need a chat at anytime with someone who has had a similar experience, feel free to send me a message :)