Published on 12, July, 2020
So, I'm having a really difficult time at the moment (I'm sure I'm not alone in this). I need some advice. I'm really struggling with my mental health and my family are being difficult to say the least. I told my mum how I feel (about all the situations going on in my family) and she dismissed me and ignored everything I said, turning it around so that she was the victim and I was being ridiculous. I struggle to share my emotions normally instead bottling it up and ignoring it until I have a breakdown. Needless to say, it was a big deal for me to share. Having it thrown in my face was too much. Not to mention that afterwards my brother decided to message and have a go at me about upsetting my mum and how he wouldnt let me in the house when I go home (he's 14 and a bully).I'm struggling anyway at the moment, hating myself and everything about me, I'm having a bad time with my anxiety and I think I'm depressed. I'm not feeling very optimistic about the future and I always feel inadequate. I don't process my emotions very well and don't really even know how to decipher how I'm feeling most of the time.
I need some advice, I just don't know what to do anymore.
are you autistic ?
Yes
sorry you are having such a bad time. Sorry you having bad anxirty and consider yourself to be depressed. Can I ask what age are you ?
My family. Me. Im angry with my family for keeping things from me and lying to me. Im angry at myself for being upset about it
angry who are u angry with ?
I feel <Overwhelmed> <sad> <angry>
list the emotions u have in your head
like this ,,,, list them all
I feel <emotion>
Yeah, so my course is a BSc but im hoping to do a masters at a different uni after. I do a lot of biology and chemistry and theres some physics and other bits thrown in too
wow thats a complex one do u need biochenistry chemistry biology is it a BSc ?
pharmacological, molecular, biochemical, cell biological and genetic techniques its an MSc right ?
Pharmacology and drug discovery
thats good what are u studying at uni ?
Thanks for your advice! You've actually helped a lot, even the process of replying to your messages has helped me to calm down
The reason i mention them as they are 24hr 7 dyas a week. They just dont deal with suicidal people they deal with all mental health issues including people who just what to talk to a human being.
u can ring them any time when you are in this state
feels like a sale pitch for them
No, I always doubt how I feel and I think that there's probably people who need them more than I do
thats a pity,,, have u ever tried ringing the Samaritans ?
I agree, I just don't really know how to process my feelings very well. I've contacted the support services at my uni, but its saturday and I wont hear anything back until at least monday
good i mean its good to let it out.
Yeah, I've been crying all afternoon
are u felling sad and tearful ? its ok to feel sad
Yeah, I have housemates, but they're all in their own rooms too. I just don't really feel like being around them right now. Sometimes I need to be alone to try and process what I am feeling
on your own ?
In my bedroom, at Uni
where are u right now ? describe your location
Yes please!
i'll send you a link to the exercises on how to handle your thoughts is that a good idea ?
Okay, I understand
ok now i want you to tahnk you mind like this
thank you thinking mind for making me feel sad tonight you wiill keep me on my toes
???
next exercise ready ?
do u understand ?
Its difficult because I am normally really close with my family, but when i go away, its like they forget that I exist
EX 2
“My boss is not an idiot. But I am having the thought that my boss is an idiot.”
above is like a template on how to form ur thoughts
so this is YOU below
my family are fine, but i am having a thought that my family are keeping things from me
my family are not lying to me , but i am having a thought that my family are lying to fme
I am perfectly ok , but I am having a thought that i am angry for being upset