Published on 12, July, 2020
im seriously considering taking my life, I can’t go to work cos I don’t function well in work environment but I can’t afford not to. I’m on esa support but it’s not enough and I can’t get pip cos they don’t believe my issues. I’m causing issues for others and I’m a burden on family who also can’t afford to keep me so what’s the point! I have no quality of life and I’m ruining everyone else’s so why carry on
Hi, I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling like this. I've been in the place similar to where you are now, where I didn't see the point in carrying on and felt that everyone else would be better off without me. But it got better and I'm glad that I'm still here to tell the tale! It seems that you may be depressed and I really think that it would be wise for you to speak to your GP or other appropriate healthcare provider about this as they will be able to support you through this difficult time and signpost you to other services that will also be able to support you. Please see the following link with UK wide advice on who to contact for mental health issues and/or emergencies.
https://www.nhs.uk/using-the-nhs/nhs-services/mental-health-services/dealing-with-a-mental-health-crisis-or-emergency/
Thank you all for the kind words and for showing concern, I’m ok, I’m just so tired of everything being a struggle all the time. I don’t want to live my life anymore but i’d Never take my life, I just think about doing it sometimes.
Please follow the moderator's advice - you deserve to be happy and there are people and organisations who can help you. I've heard great things about The Samaritans - try giving them a call.
Dear Jason,
Following on from the direct message, I’m sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. Many people have similar thoughts when coping with so much and we hope you’re okay. Please keep sharing your thoughts and feelings with others in this forum, it is a very warm community, and I can see that other members of the community have responded to you already.
If you are unable to cope with the distress or despair, it’s very important to tell someone about your feelings or thoughts of suicide. As Plastic and mouse2 have said, call your GP and make an urgent appointment. Your GP can make sure you get appropriate help and support.
If it’s outside your GP hours you can call 111 to reach the NHS 111 service: http://www.nhs.uk/NHSEngland/AboutNHSservices/Emergencyandurgentcareservices/Pages/NHS-111.aspx
The Samaritans may be useful too and they can provide confidential non-judgemental emotional support, it is supposed to be 24 hours a day on 116 123, or by email on jo@samaritans.org.
MIND have information pages on coping with suicidal feelings based on the experiences of people who’ve been through it that you may find helpful.
If you do find you are very close to doing something to hurt yourself, please call 999 now or go to your nearest A&E department. There should be someone there to support you and make sure you get ongoing support.
If you need help with an autism related issue, our helpline can be emailed via webform https://www.autism.org.uk/services/helplines/main/questions.aspx or they’re open Monday to Thursday 10am-4pm and Friday 9am-3pm on 0808 800 4104.
Wishing you all the best,
Kiran - Mod
They can get things moving for you - they are the key-holders into the mental health / social support systems which may be your best hope to use as a safety net - they can get you in front of people who CAN help you.
You need to play nice to engage their assistance. They can't help someone who can't be helped.
It could help you start to feel better and that's more important. I've felt how you feel and it's awful. Please go see the gp first. Take each day as a step
No, don’t see the point. It won’t help my financial and living situation
Have you said all this to your GP?
You write well. You can definitely put down your thoughts clearly. I hope you can find some support that can help you find what you need to support yourself.
Not really good at anything, I enjoy gaming, tried to make a living from it and failed
The issue with that is it doesn’t put money in my pocket, roof over my head nor will it ease the burden I’m putting on others
You are getting as bad as me. Sorry that I'm not much positive help. You can always hope your lottery numbers come up.
A long time ago I was advised, find out what you're good at or you enjoy doing. Then find someone to pay you for doing it.
Start filling your life with things or activities you feel positive about. Doesn't matter how small. I tell my son to fill his life with positive actions.
Don’t think it makes a difference what the job is, it’s the act of actually working that’s an issue, I can’t even do life jobs, hygiene, cleaning, eating etc
Can you find a job/activity you feel positive doing? I have an autistic son and he's started delivering pamphlets. He gets out in the daylight, walks for hours and earns some money. When you find a job you feel ok doing then you can spend time developing your creative self. I don't do well in busy work environments and I'm not even on the spectrum. Good luck and be patient with yourself.You're not alone.