Does anyone give a?

I'm glad you have returned as I presumed you were no longer with us.

You can buy drugs online these days.  So I would suggest you learn how to do that. That will keep you away from lairy people.

You are a civilised and decent man and there are other people like that in the world too. Although it can be hard to find them at times. And of course, if you have  Autism it's ever harder to find your soulmates in the world.

People here remember you and value you. So at least there's that.  I'm always shocked when I return to the forum my own self that people have missed me.   I think autists have characteristics that are recognised and admired by other autists. But it's also possible to meet NT's who will admire you for who you are.

It's not ALL in the big book.....either of Them.....in my opinion.   It's worth looking at the stuff that didn't feature in the published books but that subsequently came to light....or came to light "quietly" thereafter?!

I hear you.  I don't doubt you....and yet I have my own experiential realities too.....and a propensity to research things to death!......and to speak my own truth.

The key is to get a grip of one's self (I believe).....that isn't always achieveable from within another's well worn shoes !  I have odd fitting feet!!!.......but then again, I'm not one to be seduced by the concept of the news of a higher power.....I was always cognisant of that concept, even when pis sed out of my head!!!

Whatever works mate.....that's the key?

I defend Bill W and the program

Again Not on acid!! Not on anything. On target, understanding from the inside You are thinking of Leary perhaps? Please go to s meeting and see. they are actually really great environments for autistic people. quiet, focused, orderly, no cross talk, kind, tolerant, clear set of rules to follow.

??? acid?? NoT. That was the whole point. 

It's all in the "Big Book".

not really, dear #, its has steps and rules and protocol and an orderly way of structuring ones recovery. It's got all sorts.

• PPS....Although AA choose not to release any stats regarding the success of our "type" in the programme.......anecdotal evidence suggests that we don't particularly fit in...and often drop out.  Quelle Surpise !!

PS.....I also have a strong propensity to support "whatever works"....so have no objection (in principle) to Bill W.  ......it's just very normie?!

Is that the guy who famously gave up booze, only to adopt a notable habit in acid?!

Like I say, I am not an evangelical.....I am "an" autistic...I see all angles....not just angels and demons!

Perfaps become a friend of Bill W. this may change your perspective.

Hello Roswell, I am Number.

You sound like i would have done, a while back.

I haven't particularly  changed, and the world only ever seems to become more hostile and unpleasant......and yet, I find myself so very much happier!  I hope this gives you some hope?

I'm not wholly sure why I feel happier than I did when I sounded like you....genuinely not sure! I did stop drinking...so perhaps that?! (Don't worry, I'm not the evangelical type when it comes to drinking....I'm more from the school of thought that says "whatever keeps you sane" is better than going proper mental...or worse still...causes you to loose your soul!!!!

Anyone who is OK by Desmond, is OK by me mate.  Great to see a wonderer/wanderer return to these/their pages.

I hope to catch up with you again soon.

I hope your bruises aren't too painful.  You are right...people (generally) do seem to be vile....but there are some good'uns around if you keep your eyes open.

Kind regards

Number.

I was lucky that I fell back on the family home, and land, but developing a spending plan is tough; especially whenever one was shielded for so long.

Living in a rough area would not be ideal. They would buy and sell you; there.

I'm very sorry to read what you went through and I hope things are better for you now.

I know life is hard but please hang in there. Take it one day at a time and remember, no matter how bad things become there is always hope. Things do change for the better sometimes. Stay strong, thinking of you.

Those were interesting songs to share, I can see some relevance. I do feel quite old. In some ways I'm glad. Young people scare me sometimes. Every generation has always said they think young people are inappropriate and outrageous. Perhaps then I'm just another stereotype. But, yeah, you can feel the pain in those songs.

I'm grateful for people welcoming me back who remember me. I am not too bad physically now. The beating wounds are all healed. I do feel scared though of dying alone and miserable. I was living in a mental health charity housing place. There were 10 of us. We all had a little flat with our own little bathroom. The flats were tiny but the rent was very cheap and all the bills were paid for us. It was a fairly easy life. Now I live with my parents again. I was offered two flats in not too nice areas and I turned them down for two reasons - 1) I grew up middle class and as an Autistic person I just don't like change much so feel safe living in the middle class town I live in and, 2) I don't feel able anymore to budget properly and deal with water, gas and electric companies and the tax office and council, all of which the charity did for me and my parents now do for me.

WB Roswell. 

So sorry this has happened to you and I really hope things will get better for you.

You are amongst friends here who care and will try to support you through the dark days.

Welcome back, Mate!

Shame you were beaten up. Honey traps are everywhere.

Roswell...
Hang on in there buddy.....
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Roswell.
Just for you.....
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Roswell said:

I was beaten up by two drug dealers recently

Are you doing okay now?

I know life can feel like this sometimes, but it does get better. You just have to hang in there and try to remember the things that are good