Published on 12, July, 2020
I'm 36 years old and have no friends, I do not see the point in this life. All I see around me are hypocrites and vile demons who have no souls. I was beaten up by two drug dealers recently for flirting with their "girls" who they control; i. e. they are pimps as well. People in this world are vile, in many instances. I am extremely isolated and people refuse to allow me to use their charity services or whatever else because I drink heavily even though I meditate for 6 hours a day and admire Gandhi, Buddha and all the Hindu Gods as well as the Abrahamic God too. I go in pubs sometimes and pull out a paperback book and read it. I am a civilised and decent man. It seems to me all life is, is pain.
Hello Roswell, I am Number.
You sound like i would have done, a while back.
I haven't particularly changed, and the world only ever seems to become more hostile and unpleasant......and yet, I find myself so very much happier! I hope this gives you some hope?
I'm not wholly sure why I feel happier than I did when I sounded like you....genuinely not sure! I did stop drinking...so perhaps that?! (Don't worry, I'm not the evangelical type when it comes to drinking....I'm more from the school of thought that says "whatever keeps you sane" is better than going proper mental...or worse still...causes you to loose your soul!!!!
Anyone who is OK by Desmond, is OK by me mate. Great to see a wonderer/wanderer return to these/their pages.
I hope to catch up with you again soon.
I hope your bruises aren't too painful. You are right...people (generally) do seem to be vile....but there are some good'uns around if you keep your eyes open.
Kind regards
Number.