Published on 12, July, 2020
I love stinming but visual stims are an obsession for me now. I love watching cars with their lights on, I have a lava lamp which I love to stare at.
But it's also led to an unhealthy stim which is staring at the sun, really stupid I know but I can't help it. If it's bright I can't not look. It's led to solar retinopathy for me, first in my left eye two tears ago and now this month in my right eye. I have blind spots and very blurry vision because of it.
But I love stinming and I know the risks but I still love the light. Can anyone relate to this? I've had my dad and doctors checking me for mental stability, if I do it for attention but no one believes or even considers it could just be an autistic thing.
I like the idea of artificial lighting. My Granny and Grampy have a lovely fish tank which is built in to their wall, it looks lovely all lit up like a Xmas tree, but it's kind to the eyes. I'm on a mission not to look at the sun again, can't afford anymore damage to my sight.
I'm trying not to I've been trying to look at my lava lamp more, the sun has done a lot of damage and according to my eye doctor my eyes can only tolerate so much.
Cororon, sorry to hear about the solar retinopathy.
Though I understand the urge - I like seeing the sunrise each morning - try to avoid looking at the sun.
Sometimes bright artificial lights I find calming.
I used to look at welding as a kid and its not good you damadge your eyes dont stare at the sun please you will thank me oneday