Published on 12, July, 2020
I love stinming but visual stims are an obsession for me now. I love watching cars with their lights on, I have a lava lamp which I love to stare at.
But it's also led to an unhealthy stim which is staring at the sun, really stupid I know but I can't help it. If it's bright I can't not look. It's led to solar retinopathy for me, first in my left eye two tears ago and now this month in my right eye. I have blind spots and very blurry vision because of it.
But I love stinming and I know the risks but I still love the light. Can anyone relate to this? I've had my dad and doctors checking me for mental stability, if I do it for attention but no one believes or even considers it could just be an autistic thing.
I used to look at welding as a kid and its not good you damadge your eyes dont stare at the sun please you will thank me oneday
I'm trying not to I've been trying to look at my lava lamp more, the sun has done a lot of damage and according to my eye doctor my eyes can only tolerate so much.