Published on 12, July, 2020
To be aware of it is the scariest thing in the universe --- If it exists outside our perception. Awareness that we are nothing compared to the size of the universe and our time of existence in this universe is less than the blink of a cosmic eye. Awareness that our senses are drastically limited to perceive the true nature of the universe. Awareness that any amount of scientific knowledge won’t be enough for us to differentiate if the universe is subjective or objective, that we're pre-programmed or we have a free will, that we are created or are we the result of some random events (or experiment). For me this is my broad view. At a more personal level what scares you.
As I’m growing in confidence and self awareness since the autism diagnosis I’m less and less scared of things. I mentioned above I am still and probably always will be afraid of clowns, also masks, both wearing them (well I can’t) and seeing others in them. These two things are trauma responses. I am still frightened of sleeping though I hope therapy will help with this one.
Clowns terrify me too, it may be more a trauma response than an auti thing though.
Great idea for a thread.
Bigotry and fundamentalism in people, simply because of the repercussions and the awful things people will say and do because of their beliefs.
There isn't really anything else that scares me although lots of physical things can make me nauseous or dizzy.
Lots of things people say and do can make me angry.
A lot of people are scared of death but that has never scared me.
I should have added phone calls. Every time the phone rings I'm full of dread even if its not my phone ringing.
Making and receiving phone calls.
Unfamiliar surroundings.
Meeting people and SPIDERS!
The incomprehensibly vast expanse and timescale of the universe.
And clowns.
I'm so scared of everything really.
I'm scared of death being ill being alone
Scared I'll end up in a mental health hospital
Scared being sick
Scared of people
Scared of going out.
It's a long list of fear
I'm very easily scared. Mostly of nervous breakdowns, but also suffering in general, especially strokes. Also food and people.
And bunnies. What's with all the carrots? What do they need such good eyesight for anyway?
Toothache, I'm very practical.
Standing up for myself. Making myself heard.
Nothing makes me feel more sick.