Published on 12, July, 2020
Mentally, physically and it just gets worse as life goes on. I’ve had a crap day, cried a lot, I’m exhausted. More and more I seem to shout ‘it’s always something!’. Because it is, just when you think you’ve got everything out of the way something new pops up, something breaks, forgot to pay for something, appt coming up you don’t want to go to, something wrong with health, just bl&£dy something all of the time. Just when you think it’s actually quiet, some idiot will start being loud in their garden, some neighbours will make noise for days on end, someone will start road works, something will be wrong with the car. Exhaustion. I want, need a simpler life. But it’s never going to happen. Even those very small fleeting moments of finding something funny or saying something funny seem so false. I’m so tired and everything seems so pointless.
It's always either noise without or within, isn't it? And sometimes both.
Yes!!!! Always!!!
You've burst my eardrums now, chief.
That’s because it’s online and written and I had time to think. I very nearly worded it differently but what I did actually post was a reflection on how I actually feel, rather than the angry abrupt response I would have done in real life. And then shook and felt terrible for the rest of the day.
Zoe, Don't be hard on yourself. Everyone understands - frankly, you conducted your comment with graceful care. Brava !
Sorry also. Got carried away being myself. Never intended for anyone to feel bad.
It's fine, honestly. In any case, you were as polite as you possibly could have been. Please think nothing of it.
No I’m sorry. I immediately regretted it after posting it and now feel horrible. I’m not great at saying what I want to say at the best of times. I don’t want to make either of you feel bad so just ignore me. I’m being miserable because I’m sick of life but that’s neither of your fault.
Sorry, Zoe. My fault entirely.
No. I just think you may both have been better to either pm each other or make a new thread. The point of me writing this is in no way meant to make either one of you feel bad, but the fact that it’s been posted inside my thread is making me feel bad.
When we escape, we can make billions* from doing 'Twits in a Wishing Well' interviews with tv, radio, newspapers etc.
*20p each.
And that is so me
I'm just glad we've kept the thread on topic. Sort of. Well, alright, we haven't. But we tried. Okay, so we didn't.
I get top bunk!!!!
I hope there's room in the well for hospital bunkbeds.
I'm not sure I'd be any safer for you, though I would enjoy the company. Plus on a side note, I can be a little accident prone myself.
In the past few weeks I've electrocuted myself with a lamp, poured boiled water on my hand, walked into a metal step ladder twice and fractured a little finger. So, I think I'd better stick with you rather than risk having a ladder dropped down to me.
Hahahahahaha I wouldn't blame you, a ladder is far more useful.
It is now included in my repertoire, thank you for your literary contribution.
It sounds so good and feels good when you say it. I'm so using that!
I'd never *dream* of swapping you for a ladder, despite all the adverts I've placed.
It does!
You can't get rid of me that easily!
I made up a word this week (or was it last) that made me very happy because of how it sounds. If something is like a gargoyle, it is "gargoylian" - Gar - Goy - Li - an........I think that sounds fab out loud?