Published on 12, July, 2020
Mentally, physically and it just gets worse as life goes on. I’ve had a crap day, cried a lot, I’m exhausted. More and more I seem to shout ‘it’s always something!’. Because it is, just when you think you’ve got everything out of the way something new pops up, something breaks, forgot to pay for something, appt coming up you don’t want to go to, something wrong with health, just bl&£dy something all of the time. Just when you think it’s actually quiet, some idiot will start being loud in their garden, some neighbours will make noise for days on end, someone will start road works, something will be wrong with the car. Exhaustion. I want, need a simpler life. But it’s never going to happen. Even those very small fleeting moments of finding something funny or saying something funny seem so false. I’m so tired and everything seems so pointless.
It's always either noise without or within, isn't it? And sometimes both.
Yes!!!! Always!!!
You've burst my eardrums now, chief.
That’s because it’s online and written and I had time to think.
Trust me sister, just because we all "have the time to think" here, doesn't mean that everyone is as wise as you and uses that time to ensure that grace ensues. Again, I applaud your grace.
I will go look for it, thank you Steven, not very good navigating the site.
It wasn't fair to you or others who might want serious discussion, Zoe. Besides, it's me who should solely apologise. Please, please don't feel that you did anything wrong at all; *I* did.
I really am sorry. I should have just ignored it. I feel like I’ve ruined part of your day. I should have just let you carry on.
Incidentally:
Sorry, Pikl - in view of my derailing of the thread, I sent you a Friends Request and somehow stupidly didn't notice that you aren't accepting them.
That’s because it’s online and written and I had time to think. I very nearly worded it differently but what I did actually post was a reflection on how I actually feel, rather than the angry abrupt response I would have done in real life. And then shook and felt terrible for the rest of the day.
Zoe, Don't be hard on yourself. Everyone understands - frankly, you conducted your comment with graceful care. Brava !
Sorry also. Got carried away being myself. Never intended for anyone to feel bad.
It's fine, honestly. In any case, you were as polite as you possibly could have been. Please think nothing of it.
No I’m sorry. I immediately regretted it after posting it and now feel horrible. I’m not great at saying what I want to say at the best of times. I don’t want to make either of you feel bad so just ignore me. I’m being miserable because I’m sick of life but that’s neither of your fault.
Sorry, Zoe. My fault entirely.
No. I just think you may both have been better to either pm each other or make a new thread. The point of me writing this is in no way meant to make either one of you feel bad, but the fact that it’s been posted inside my thread is making me feel bad.