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Yes I think you are right, it's still early days so I'm bound to be feeling it a bit. And it's my first so it'll take some getting used to won't it :) 

One thing I'm struggling with is that different volunteers are there different days and parents keep talking to me but I can't talk back lol. It's a bit embarrassing xx

I always find the first few weeks if a new job extra exhausting.  You've got to get used to a new environment and new people and that takes a lot of processing which takes extra energy.  But once you're more at home there, it does get easier.  And you get stronger, too.  Don't give up just yet, just plan yourself some good recovery time.

I usually get my books from ebay as well, musicmagpie or worldofbooks. Also where I get my dvds from :) 

I've never read a book in polish before. I'm not very good at other languages so guess I wouldn't get very far in lol.

I think you're right - I mean life is short and possessions should be used shouldn't they? No point in having them otherwise.

I began my Fairy Tale book last night. It's very big and I may not get chance to finish it but I'm going to try x

I've got a Narnia book I bought online and that one is worn, smells really old but charming at the same time.

I keep my books, over a 100 already, in plastic boxes I bought at Argos. I have 8 boxes 35 liter size of books. only half of one is in polish, all other in english. I buy used books in very good condition on ebay or amazon. the prices are around £2 per book.

I read it in polish when I was 15y.o. and my imagination system is based on invented by Suoer Chikdren communicatiion method for their personal use. Than I read it again some few years ago in english again. I do that with all books, In one language first, than after many years in another language again.

It turns out that translations into polish and into english are not the same, I noticed it first time reading Asimov's Fundation Series.

Read them Luna.

We don't last forever either and you'll miss your chance.

Books are made to be read and actually, a lovely old book that is clearly read over the years, very imperfect, is a joy to my mind.

I read a Kindle too because of eyesight problems.

Yes that is true and that also bothers me. I own a lot of books,proper books I mean, but I'm too anxious to read them because I don't want them wearing and damaged :/ 

I wish books lasted forever.

Luna said:

I like Kindle, it's a lot easier for me than actual books. I love normal books but they wear and I want my books to stay exactly the same x

Except that a Kindle 'book' isn't really a book I think, just a set of words on a screen

When does a book become a book?

When it's a physical entity made of paper I reckon?

If you go to the Kindle store and type in her name or the book title it comes up :) 

I'm really enjoying it so far! I like Kindle, it's a lot easier for me than actual books. I love normal books but they wear and I want my books to stay exactly the same x

I've never used kindle, where does it say autors name? it should be Nancy Kress. I don't remember the beginning, I read it 3 years ago, or something like that, and my philosopher friend has my copy

Steven said:

If you ever need some lessons in how to avoid overthinking, I will send you a forty-thousand-page introduction to the 93 books I've written on the subject.

Hilarious

Hi Debbie,

I'm hoping it will get better, maybe I just need to adjust and get used to it. If not I'm hoping I'll find something more suited to me :) 

Volunteering with animals is a good shout though, thanks ^^

It's another good option xxx

Yay I found and bought it on my Kindle :) 

Sorry it's not working as well as you hoped Luna.

A quieter job away from the world might be better.

I was wondering, as I think you said you live on a farm, whether you could volunteer to work with animals somewhere?

Anyway, whatever you do, I hope you find peace and contentment xx

I'd love to do something from home, ideally, but I don't know what. It's something I can look into though ^^

Thank you. I am proud, but I wish I was doing better but I think I'll leave the Nursery before too long :) 

I hope there will be more opportunities, I'm not sure what else I could do but hopefully I'll find something more suitable for me. Xxx

Ha thank you! :P I'm not sure I'll be able to do it either lol but I can try. I do need to stop doing so much all at once, that defos burns me out.

And thank you for the book recommendation - this sounds like a really good book. Defos one I'd enjoy! My local library closed sadly but I've found the book on eBay so will pick it up ^^

Well a lot of it is anxiety and I've also got a problem with my throat, but that's being treated.

I'm so sorry to hear of your own problems. That must be really hard for you, no wonder you're tired. Take things easy and don't get down and do things in your own time, there's no rush. 

Take each day as it comes.

If this particular job doesn't last it doesn't mean that you can't work, just that this particular environment wasn't the right fit at this point in your life.

You can be very proud of yourself that you tried. You have managed a lot longer than I would have done in such a noisy environment.

Hopefully there will be other opportunities in the future, in a quieter and less exhausting environment and less anxiety inducing for you. 

One more thing - at work - don't spent all your energy early in a morning even if kids want more, save yourself for afternoon, and time after work, pacing is something not easy for me, maybe you can do it better :P 

If you can get a used one from some library saleout https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beggars_in_Spain

story happens in our times, philosophical a bit, Sleepless are us main character is a sleepless women, and her sleeper sister