Published on 12, July, 2020
Reading through it was really nice but also a super sad. I have really dramatic mixed feelings about it.
Like all my history was there, it was all put into words with correct terminology, it was all put in order so it wasn't all a jumbled mess like it is in my head. It was great! I felt very understood and it was an awesome experience over all. Everything makes sense and I don't feel like there was one comment out of place.
But... it also reads like a big list of everything thats wrong with me. Everything seems so... undesirable and shitty and theres just so muuuuuch trrraaauma. It sort of makes the thought of ever having a job that I can actually handle and thrive in or friend group or even a relationship etc just seem so unreachable and unachievable for me. Its kind of a huge downer as well as being happy that I have an answer now and an understanding finally to my identity.
I honestly keep in mind constantly to just be kind to myself. Negative thoughts use to swamp me and drag me down to the point of years of continuous episodes of major depression bordering psychosis. But I have since learned a lot of healthy coping mechanisms and have had them in practice for a good while now. And I like to think that I have gotten pretty good at it.
I am trying to focus on the positives and being kind to myself but I dunno.... this is some really complicated stuff because its very identity heavy, and thats something I have always alllways struggled with.
How did you feel reading your assessment report? Did you struggle with mixed feelings that were polar opposite? How did you cope? Did it get better?
Thanks yeah still not here I check my email religiously still no report
thats ok i have no idea why i asked that question,, i think its because u come across as someone who could work if given the chance or my subconscious is saying u should consider a simple online business of some sort. Sometimes i wonder who is in control of my thoughts !
hi all hope you are all ok I was diagnosed on the 8th October still no letter yet and I will admit there is a lot of trepidation about it if it wasn't for my meds I would be giving a few people grief about not having it yet
I don't unfortunately. I can just about function looking after myself in general and thats only now because I am stable, when I am unstable I can barely do that. Adding a job to that is just too overwhelming for me. Deffo not from a lack of trying though, I have tried loads of different jobs. They all ended up causing me to go into burn out / shutdown mode insanely quickly/easily and it would take more and more time to recover from it until eventually I quit (just stopped going) or got fired. So I have to be kind/realistic with myself and just accept that full time work isn't for me.
Now if there was a job where I didn't have to interact with strangers, I could choose my hours, pays well, I could do it at home, that I don't need qualifications for annnnd is something that I actually enjoy then yeah, sing me up. But even then, thats only for when I am stable. My other disorders make my mental health unpredictable and I have no idea when episodes will start or end. Literally this is the first time I have been stable in over 5 years.
Jobs like that just don't exist.
Ultimately it is up to you. Its not always a negative experience so keep that in mind. Everyones experiences are different so just do what you think is best for you. Also I received my report through email, not the post. So maybe check there?
Do you have a job?
I don’t think I’ll be able to resist I can handle anything I don’t think they will be any surprises I have a in person feedback session so I think it will a more detailed version.
no dont read it it can be very upsetting.
put it away, and keep moving on, or have someone with you to counter u're negative response
I’m not sure either last came on Monday I’ll just have to patient I got the diagnosis I’m just really interested in what the report says.
there are issues here with half the postmen off sick so here there is one delivery per week. Not sure about your area.
Still waiting no post today
best of luck
thats the new modern approach
Hopefully I’ll get mine soon I got diagnosed 1 day after you.
I just got Autism Spectrum Disorder, nothing was said about high or low functioning.
they said reports usually take 4-6 weeks to me, I had my final appointment on the 14th October and I just got mine today.
I got a diagnosis at a feedback session on October 15 she said I’m A high functioning autistic still waiting for the report to come in the post.
Hello Emmy still waiting for my report 3 weeks it was meant to be it’s almost 4 weeks
lol
My wrists are already tattooed haha