Published on 12, July, 2020
Today has been utter hell. Or yesterday technically.
My son is 14 and has high functioning ASD.
I'm a single mum. He's wrecked the house today, tried tying cable round his neck, tried finding knives I hid away, head butted doors and lashed out. I have tried so hard to talk to him but he will not or cannot communicate. He's extremely angry all the time. One of the neighbours called the police out . They were very helpful but as soon as they left my son just got angry again.
He will NOT accept help from anyone. None of my family have even bothered to come help me today and they knew what was going on.
We will now have social work involved yet again which I really wanted to avoid.
I am sitting here exhausted and completely terrified of absolutely everything. I am seriously considering ending it as I do not see a way out, no one seems to care and tomorrow feels unbearable before it's even started. The long term future is bleak at best.
I am on antidepressants and am seriously considering taking the lot.
Help me please anyone
My raging was mostly due to pent up frustration at not being able to communicate what I needed or being denied what I knew I needed or not feeling I could trust anyone with the truth of serial abuse I both experienced and witnessed. Some of that abuse was not in the household but I did not feel seen or heard there, let alone believed.
Some questions to ask your self
1- when did the raging begin?
1a - what changed for him or for the family or at school o(r extracurricular) around that time?
2- how sudden was it?
3 - what significant changes have there been in your life, and in his
4 - what changes have there been in his school?
5 - are there any new people in the picture?
6 - are there any people who have left your son's life?
7 - are there new rules, restrictions, expectations?
You sound like you are alone. You need to find support for your self.