Published on 12, July, 2020
Today has been utter hell. Or yesterday technically.
My son is 14 and has high functioning ASD.
I'm a single mum. He's wrecked the house today, tried tying cable round his neck, tried finding knives I hid away, head butted doors and lashed out. I have tried so hard to talk to him but he will not or cannot communicate. He's extremely angry all the time. One of the neighbours called the police out . They were very helpful but as soon as they left my son just got angry again.
He will NOT accept help from anyone. None of my family have even bothered to come help me today and they knew what was going on.
We will now have social work involved yet again which I really wanted to avoid.
I am sitting here exhausted and completely terrified of absolutely everything. I am seriously considering ending it as I do not see a way out, no one seems to care and tomorrow feels unbearable before it's even started. The long term future is bleak at best.
I am on antidepressants and am seriously considering taking the lot.
Help me please anyone
It might be hormones that generally make him irritable and/or depressed. He sounds like he has a lot of pent up energy with nowhere to go, and perhaps has a hard time socializing with his peers at school. Maybe he was bullied and is angry at himself and everything in his life. I don't know how many needs he has for his autism though.
The situation you're in would be tough on any parent, especially a single parent. There is a lot of possibility for someone to become harmed, and that is the scary part. You deserve to feel safe in your own home. Even if you don't want to involve the social workers, you need a lot of help from any source you can get, any professionals, anyone and everyone. Even if other family members don't want to get involved, it doesn't mean that there's no one who would step in to help the situation.
Isn't there something he wants to do with his life? Any dreams he has? Hopefully, you can convince him to accept help, so that he can have a better mindset for achieving his dreams in life.