Published on 12, July, 2020
I'll be straightforward.
I hate having autism
I hate the fact that there's so much rubbish going on in the world.
The world seems to get worse every day.
I see no hope for the world.
I hate having autism.
I wish I was never born.
I hate it when people discriminate against autistic people, or say stupid things like "oh everybody's a little bit autistic" or some other rubbish.
I hate what autism does to me. Im afraid of everything now.
Im an ugly *** and I wish I wasn't alive.
Every day I hope I die in my sleep.
Im so behind in life and I see no point.
Yeah, being autistic can really suck BIG TIME!
I'm probably a lot older than you, early 50's and was only diagnosed one year ago.
I do try to embrace the supposed "good" that autism brings, but sometimes (maybe a lot of times recently) I really struggle with my condition. I'm a bright guy, not as bright as you though, but the way that my autism can draw me in can be exhausting.
We tend to have a very sharp eye for detail, which others say is a "superpower", but a lot of the time it seems like more of a curse to me.
I could never consider my autism a superpower. It is a hindrance.