Executive functioning's totally f****d

Yes. I’m useless at running my own life unfortunately, it’s not great. Worst of it is it can make me feel like such a failure. Simple things - sometimes I just can’t deal with them. It’s weird because I’m not lacking in intelligence - and yet I struggle so much with so many day to day aspects of life - to the extent that I can get suicidal thoughts when faced with basic functional problems in life. It’s a bit rubbish isn’t it? Try to be kind to yourself and not be too judgemental of yourself - we have a neurological difference - it’s not our fault.

I hope I don't offend by saying that your post made me smile, for more than one reason... Mr Squirrel 

I was never just being naughty or bad like I was made to think growing up. But this is how I coped. I still get bursts of frustration, anger & the feeling of complete & utter despair. I did do things to myself like taking freezing cold showers to numb the chaos & pain, to try to block it all out, stop myself from imploding. The buzzing of so many things going around my head that nothing was clear & I just wanted it to stop! It is like a whole stadium of people shouting questions at you & demanding answers!

I have come to the point now where I have almost come to terms with it - as my Asperger's friend says "it is what it is"! So I prepare for it's next coming & stop trying to fight & try ride it out. To my surprise, this has actually helps me. So I don't fight or try to overcome it (which TBH is a struggle). So I think to myself, ok, this is how I am just now & I just...  Stop. Doesn't matter what I am trying to do. Sometimes I just sit on the sofa & let it flow over me in silence. Sometimes I find that music relaxes me & helps me to focus. The sooner I do this the sooner I come out the other end. Coming to the conclusion that I can do nothing about it & excepting that fact has helped make the worst of it ease & it seems to help me relax & find some kind of calmness much sooner.

This may or may not help you. But I thank you for sharing & making me aware that "I am not the only one!"

We all know corned beef and spam are the cure-all for executive function difficulties, inertia, procrastination and brain fog. To the OP this may seem obscure but it relates to a thread from almost a year ago I now remember starting.

So with this bit of inane distraction I will now depart to do what it is that I'm actually supposed to be doing. 

Definiteoy NOT the right time but when is....

I do like the word "ineptitude"

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rather than trying to fight against myself

Well, you are doing better than me then.......because I'm beating myself up......constantly.....because I feel I deserve it....or at least something unpleasant !  My mindless and needless self harm (in a practical, not medical sense) defies all rational attempts to comprehend it's own ineptitude.

There must, surely, be some way to be better, somehow - not "cured" but "improved" from 3% efficacy to say 30% ?!?!?!

Some days, the frustration goes past exasperation into the realms of utter desperation.....it feels like that today.....AGAIN !!!

Hell yeah brother !

Utterly f****d indeed.

Not  absolutely always.....sometimes, it can be golden........BUT VERY OFTEN IT IS NOT.....AND IT     DRIVES    ME        F R I G G I N G      S    P     A      R     E    !!!!  Utterly frustrating and disheartening.  I often feel like a squirrel who knows how to speak 9 languages fluently and could compose an opus......but of course....squirrels can't speak, nor write.

That's me (at best).....an over-inspired, frustrated squirrel !!

Now that's a "thought for the day!"

Mine has much room for improvement.  I do write a lot of things down.  That helps a bit but I still find it easier to remember 16th Century Spanish monarchs and their reigns than what I am supposed to do at work tomorrow.

I think this is something most neurodivergent people (and those with related conditions) have difficulty with - the actual, practical side of life - but there's little to no help available. Not that we should expect any help anyway in my opinion. ... Online strategies seem to be lacking and short sighted.... ("Use post it notes! Write a list!"). I am learning to do what comes naturally and adjust my own expectations rather than trying to fight against myself. Easier said than done tho!