Published on 12, July, 2020
Today I went in to Dublin to get some shopping, was successful in this except for the milk I like. Tut. I also visited St Stephens Green Park which was lovely as always, whilst ensuring my face was protected from the sun by a hat lol.
When I was back home I decided to try to tidy up my room. It's needed doing for some time but everything in there is so neat and tidy I hate to touch it because then it's not all perfectly neat. As you can hear my OCD is horribly fierce!
But I was strong and decided to have a quick tidy up in which I dusted everything and then immediately got it all back to its neat and tidy positions. Every book, picture, Funko Pop and item in there is perfectly straight now.
And then this afternoon I've literally just rested on my bed as I listened to music.
This evening I'm watching Ruth Rendells Inspector Wexford and then I'll try to watch something else until I'm so tired I fall asleep.
How was your day? ️
I woke up, did some math problems because I am trying to get better at math. I scrolled this forum, and I forgot where I was for awhile, and then I found that once I snapped back to reality, I was eating chips for some reason, and then I realized that I didn't eat breakfast yet, but it was already after noon. And I didn't do much yet.
I was planning to clean today. Although my cleaning skills are sub par, considering I get perplexingly sad when everything is all gone from my table or desk, as if all my favorite things have been taken away and thrown out, and I'll never get them back, even if I'm the one who cleaned it. It must be some kind of thing I can't remember from way back when in childhood. But anyways, I've cleaned out some things, yet having a certain amount of clutter makes me feel comfortable, and having it all clean and barren makes me feel sad or anxious, but I'm trying to get past that. I wonder how cleaning is like for you?
Cleaning for me is difficult because I'm so anxious about dust and germs and it being on my skin or me breathing it in. I also suffer really bad fatigue and doing even small tasks I find exhausting.
So I don't dust or clean nearly as much as I should...
But then I get upset when I see dust on things but very rarely can I bring myself to actually clean it.
I like my possessions to be neat and tidy if possible.