Published on 12, July, 2020
Well my post diagnosis was messy and the mute shut down and rejection of alll medical assistance was the out working of a failier of response that is typical of the mental health provisions in surrey. the few people I saw were ok and the psychiatrist did get me a step along but i was wel annoyed that his paper work was nessacary to qualify what i had been bleeting on about for years anf even now the system has let me drift off because i was traumatise dby the 40 questions it takes to get an assesment to go on the 18 month waiting list for therapy. PLEASE
So how was i exumed from my silence and driven from my pyjamas and the doldrums of indifferent failier and the contemplations of my own execution that I willing ly considered and rejected to continue what I saw as fsithful but self detructive choice to live.
Well She is called Foxy anad she is the dumped dog who escaped the battersey death nell, to become my little world of sucess on a different world view of things.
You can see her baby picture here
http://www.alldogsmatter.co.uk/?dogs-rehomed,7
I am up at 4 to keep the floor dry and when she eats I remember to, her walks and my medication go together and all in all we are a good team, I have to be the boss and eat first and have learned to shout or bark when I am not happy with realy bad behaviour, I am the one who is at the training classes she is well smart and had to go up a class.
The staff at the school responded in fine style to my iam autistic card and a few of them have first hand experience and experts in the friend and family line who would consult to help my challenges, which was overwhelming on the first day.
http://adolescentdogs.com/ have been exelent in their understanding and have been keen to help me keep a sfe and happy doe mostly I needed reassuring that i wass not breaking her in some way.
So I was lead out of the rock under which I crawled realy by a small bright inteligent Little Red Dog, called Foxy.
WB
When ther are no languages to bridge the devide it is the best of us as animals that we have in common, it is sad that we despise this beauty in ourselves as base and of no value or function, for I think it is the very antidote to all that ails us as a result of the toxicity of the life we call modern.
skin of teeth power reccommended as a fine sourse of power have used it often goes well with large doses of Bu£% sh&t when nessacary. And excuses many windswept looks and grotty trowser moments.
Foxy and I got a 104 candle torch with dip and high beam so along with the wellies that need to be changed we are in fine form for the rest of the dark evenings. I got a snazzy pg field wax sleeveless padded coat from the edinburgh woolen mill where I go for my only, yes ! only, sales shopping each year. reduced from 90 shekels to 40 a deal. the saving are busted now.
I had a stomp about the financial institutional efforts I was being squeesed towards by the social service peeps but I have my grubbies on the information from the NAS peeps on what I am allowed to have and what officials have to do. If anyone ever said revenge is sweet then it comes no sweeter that to be able to stop people doing to me, and demanding and blustering about what I cannot do and to tell them they cannot do this or that and have to meet me on my terms when fair.
I even phoned my local council and asked them who their designated communicator was and had they got a management member of staff in place to meet all their new responsabilities. did they know about Autism and what will they be doing to ament the short fall as it is about to be two years past the legislated time of responsibility. Oh I was so nice about the matter but you can bet your bottom dollar I will be back to haunt the siuation and see if they are doing rether that apologising.
Power to the people the monotropic mind set has got a crack in the fabric of society and can now be given the same rights and expectations as ethnicity. I f we all turn out to have a geneticly common factor I think we ae entitled to ethnic recognition too.
Brain on fuggy still with no sign f full restoration after the last round of meds. Me too on the pain management thing my second course. A psycologist is appearing from nowhere some time to help with said meds issues, door-horse-bolted comes to mind.
Did you notice we are being chopped off at page eight, ...............cheek some moddy bummble is on page 37 and they are going to do the dirty on us. Any ideas for the next spot to start yakking do you think they would notice if we coded the conversation under your dogs names for a bit, rotters; just when we were getting going again with new polish and the new year for subject matter.
Foxy had balls and a big turkey toy along with a new bowel and a posh wax jacket Mil got her after she dreamed it. Mil is still here beating the odds, getting well shakey and loosing a grip on time and events but we went to the cinema, i think she saw most of it. We had xmas day on the following tusday with our presents etc, and did the dutiful for the rest of the time sharing Mil between the family.
I am not impressed with socialservice care in the home it is all about cost so much that I am amazed they keep people alive at all, I am no way having that on my watch it will be live wild or out in the frost for one last sundown if I get that much in need, do you know the carers do not even know how to put on support stockings properly. Wow we are in trouble when it comes to todays 13-19 year olds doing the care thing in a decade or two; no such thing as common sence they have been told for the last ten years HELP. and they think I am without feeling and full mental faculty,........... yea right.
Good to be at it again oats me old cocker. buckets of best wishes, the canadiand use chinese white flower oil which is manufactured ans a pure product in hong Kong, be careful of imitations, the Pak Fah yow company is the real deal and it can work wi=onders as a steam respiratory soother, but go through all the slow and small personal tests and precautions you would for your lovlies, we dropped off a years worth of our asthma medication in a homeless shelter in sydney after road testing this stuff and the family we got the education from had a child that was doing the going blue as a child thig till they used this stuff. pluss all the no dairy yada yada !
Take cae
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