Published on 12, July, 2020
Well my post diagnosis was messy and the mute shut down and rejection of alll medical assistance was the out working of a failier of response that is typical of the mental health provisions in surrey. the few people I saw were ok and the psychiatrist did get me a step along but i was wel annoyed that his paper work was nessacary to qualify what i had been bleeting on about for years anf even now the system has let me drift off because i was traumatise dby the 40 questions it takes to get an assesment to go on the 18 month waiting list for therapy. PLEASE
So how was i exumed from my silence and driven from my pyjamas and the doldrums of indifferent failier and the contemplations of my own execution that I willing ly considered and rejected to continue what I saw as fsithful but self detructive choice to live.
Well She is called Foxy anad she is the dumped dog who escaped the battersey death nell, to become my little world of sucess on a different world view of things.
You can see her baby picture here
http://www.alldogsmatter.co.uk/?dogs-rehomed,7
I am up at 4 to keep the floor dry and when she eats I remember to, her walks and my medication go together and all in all we are a good team, I have to be the boss and eat first and have learned to shout or bark when I am not happy with realy bad behaviour, I am the one who is at the training classes she is well smart and had to go up a class.
The staff at the school responded in fine style to my iam autistic card and a few of them have first hand experience and experts in the friend and family line who would consult to help my challenges, which was overwhelming on the first day.
http://adolescentdogs.com/ have been exelent in their understanding and have been keen to help me keep a sfe and happy doe mostly I needed reassuring that i wass not breaking her in some way.
So I was lead out of the rock under which I crawled realy by a small bright inteligent Little Red Dog, called Foxy.
WB
When ther are no languages to bridge the devide it is the best of us as animals that we have in common, it is sad that we despise this beauty in ourselves as base and of no value or function, for I think it is the very antidote to all that ails us as a result of the toxicity of the life we call modern.
Oh poor girl she's had a rough ride with that foot and a season to cope with..no wonder she's shedding. Sometimes we find BAch's rescue remedy helpful for the dogs if they are having a stressy time.
Think I'll ring the ASD team next week for some indication of waiting times.
The head at school has started a Forest school instead of PE on Friday afternoons. Owen initially worried as he thought we were sending him to another school! BUT after spending the time building fires and tents both children realised how fab this forest school malarky really was. :) I think I am beginning to love our new head teacher, she's so open to new ideas and activities..they are having a load of owls brought in next week and having them fly all around the school hall..I wish I'd gone to that school. They are doing all the stuff I would have done with them at home.
I find Owen is struggling after about Wednesdays. He was anxious and 'melting' last night and we found out the older girls have been picking him up and cuddling him. I am sure we can sort this out and it is all meant in a loving way but it completely overwhelmed the poor kid. We will persevere until Spring and reassess whether he can cope full time or not then. If not I could have the flexible option of part time school without him losing out on being with his sibling or the good influence of Mrs H who he adores.
Yes I am considering being a parent volunteer (a lot of the parents do this) but I want to give the boys chance to settle first. I am currently helping out on weekly swimming trips and the odd visit..and I have enjoyed it.
I too have a shrink appointment... on Monday. My anxiety has been off the scale lately and I want to try another type of medication..but I suspect resistance from him and will have to gird my loins. What does your shrink think you may have if not and ASD?
Good luck with the PCT, we are currently battling the DLA people and are awaiting a tribunal hearing date. The boys both have the same respiratory disorder but they only awarded the benefit for one kid and disallowed the other???? Go figure..numerous appeals and letters from consultants have got us nowhere so Tribunal it is. I am terrified!
Ah well party this afternoon and a fun fair this evening..yah (not) but the kids like it (to an extent)..wish me luck I'll need ear defenders!
Take good care of yourself and speak soon.
Oaty
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