Published on 12, July, 2020
Well my post diagnosis was messy and the mute shut down and rejection of alll medical assistance was the out working of a failier of response that is typical of the mental health provisions in surrey. the few people I saw were ok and the psychiatrist did get me a step along but i was wel annoyed that his paper work was nessacary to qualify what i had been bleeting on about for years anf even now the system has let me drift off because i was traumatise dby the 40 questions it takes to get an assesment to go on the 18 month waiting list for therapy. PLEASE
So how was i exumed from my silence and driven from my pyjamas and the doldrums of indifferent failier and the contemplations of my own execution that I willing ly considered and rejected to continue what I saw as fsithful but self detructive choice to live.
Well She is called Foxy anad she is the dumped dog who escaped the battersey death nell, to become my little world of sucess on a different world view of things.
You can see her baby picture here
http://www.alldogsmatter.co.uk/?dogs-rehomed,7
I am up at 4 to keep the floor dry and when she eats I remember to, her walks and my medication go together and all in all we are a good team, I have to be the boss and eat first and have learned to shout or bark when I am not happy with realy bad behaviour, I am the one who is at the training classes she is well smart and had to go up a class.
The staff at the school responded in fine style to my iam autistic card and a few of them have first hand experience and experts in the friend and family line who would consult to help my challenges, which was overwhelming on the first day.
http://adolescentdogs.com/ have been exelent in their understanding and have been keen to help me keep a sfe and happy doe mostly I needed reassuring that i wass not breaking her in some way.
So I was lead out of the rock under which I crawled realy by a small bright inteligent Little Red Dog, called Foxy.
WB
When ther are no languages to bridge the devide it is the best of us as animals that we have in common, it is sad that we despise this beauty in ourselves as base and of no value or function, for I think it is the very antidote to all that ails us as a result of the toxicity of the life we call modern.
Hi my friend.
Oh you are on one ! I can totally relate to what you are saying as I had a a few 'goes' on different anti seizure drugs for neuro pain and I was terrible on all of them. The worst was Topomax (or Dopeymax as we called it). I had very similar probs to how you describe. I lost weight, mainly because I couldn't remember where the kitchen was, cried ALL the time and lost the ability to describe or say what things were for. In the end I decided I preferred the pain *laughs*. They others at best gave me a terrible personality and I lost loads of friends due to my erratic behaviour.
I am having good dealings with our new school. Owen is still having many issues and we have been contacted by the ASD team..with another form. All the same questions I have answered a dozen times but hey. So we are on the waiting list..no idea of time scales for assessment still *looks glum*. Owen's routine was disrupted today (road blocked to school, Brian's van broke down), so he had a meltdown in the school car park at some perceived injustice I had bestowed on him. Managed to get him in school and the head took him under her wing and found the ideal activity (computer) to settle him. I was exhausted as I walked away. I do truly believe he is at the best school he could be now but it's still hard.
The head is going to start a flexi school scheme there too and that maybe another angle for us to look at if things become too problematic. I have a meeting there in a couple of weeks to discuss how things are going. I do suspect school aren't going to see Owen's issues because he masks them well in class and is very bright. However I know the other children are finding his behaviour unusual (although they are very tolerant). If only they would speak to the children more or observe him in queues, outside more...I maybe wrong but we need that diagnosis inorder to get him what he needs to take his anxiety down.
Does that makes sense?
How's Foxy coped with you 'going to the moon and back' on anti epileptics? I have been having a tricky time with my partner lately but I can see we are making some progress again now. I just have to keep trying and hope I find a better way.
Go easy on yourself if you are going completely off the drugs that quickly..it maybe a bumpy ride. I would have come off them steadily so the brain could have a slow readjustment period but I do understand it's been difficult. Just be really careful and if people are showing concern be prepared to reassess the weaning off process..please..your brain chemicals will be all over the place do take care and re consider doing it more slowly if possible.
I will be thinking of you (hug)
Oaty