Published on 12, July, 2020
Well my post diagnosis was messy and the mute shut down and rejection of alll medical assistance was the out working of a failier of response that is typical of the mental health provisions in surrey. the few people I saw were ok and the psychiatrist did get me a step along but i was wel annoyed that his paper work was nessacary to qualify what i had been bleeting on about for years anf even now the system has let me drift off because i was traumatise dby the 40 questions it takes to get an assesment to go on the 18 month waiting list for therapy. PLEASE
So how was i exumed from my silence and driven from my pyjamas and the doldrums of indifferent failier and the contemplations of my own execution that I willing ly considered and rejected to continue what I saw as fsithful but self detructive choice to live.
Well She is called Foxy anad she is the dumped dog who escaped the battersey death nell, to become my little world of sucess on a different world view of things.
You can see her baby picture here
http://www.alldogsmatter.co.uk/?dogs-rehomed,7
I am up at 4 to keep the floor dry and when she eats I remember to, her walks and my medication go together and all in all we are a good team, I have to be the boss and eat first and have learned to shout or bark when I am not happy with realy bad behaviour, I am the one who is at the training classes she is well smart and had to go up a class.
The staff at the school responded in fine style to my iam autistic card and a few of them have first hand experience and experts in the friend and family line who would consult to help my challenges, which was overwhelming on the first day.
http://adolescentdogs.com/ have been exelent in their understanding and have been keen to help me keep a sfe and happy doe mostly I needed reassuring that i wass not breaking her in some way.
So I was lead out of the rock under which I crawled realy by a small bright inteligent Little Red Dog, called Foxy.
WB
When ther are no languages to bridge the devide it is the best of us as animals that we have in common, it is sad that we despise this beauty in ourselves as base and of no value or function, for I think it is the very antidote to all that ails us as a result of the toxicity of the life we call modern.
Calm and cuddles has it alll the way, you can never go on when its the heart just out for a spin, and I liked the stuff you had to say oatcakes.
Foxy has had a cuddles and calm week, and we have reassesed what we want for her and her future. she is very attractive and popular so I have to regulate this.
As for leaving her we are not doing that till she is older and has better impulse control which we are working on regularly. The vets advice is the best and simplest "set her up to succeed". The thinking this makes is very good for me and simple to prime when I forget with the sentance as a reminder.
Foxy can be found on the alldogsmatter site, then look at the rehomed dogs that are listed in alphabetical order. They are based in finchley north london.
We have thought of the seperation anxiety but will hopefully get a large or medium cage off of freecycle so we can set her up for sucess and she can learn to hold her pee a bit more too.
My sisters boy has pdd and some times barks like a dog my sister has a very calm and constant persistance about her and dad plays the part of the final frontier. We as a group are sure the basics of Dog training realy takes the naff stuff out of the autistic learning thing and brings every bodies concept in to the moment. ditching recrimination is better for all any way and drops everyones anxiety across the board.
Please do keep on keeping on, sucess however it is aquired is about as cool as it can get.
Our seperation from the direct relationship to the earth and the other inhabitants who share this with us who come wrapped up in fur, scales or feathers; with six legs two, four or more is the loss of understanding and language that our ancestors learned and used to navigate through history itself and we would not be alive without its existance, nor would I know the reality and health I have without it.
There is much to merit a return to learning as if you know nothing and using the perameters of your humanity.
Animals gravitate towards this security and my experiences as a young person and adult bear this out. I still posess a security and lack of fear others can instinctually identify.