Published on 12, July, 2020
I hate being asked "how are you?" "are you ok?" "is anything on your mind" "you look like there's something on your mind"
I feel burnt out the last couple days, I don't like the heat I was forced to come to two small family gatherings one day after another and I didn't want to go but if I say I don't want to go I get a bunch of sh!t for it.
I hate having to go out socially more than once a week it just takes too much out me and as a result of the burn out because of that I feel so angry when people start asking me questions about how I'm feeling but I'm not good with feelings, I'm not good at understanding my own feeling (unless it's very obvious ones) and I'm even worse at explaining how I feel its like theres a mental block between how I feel and actually physically talking about it.
I hate feeling angry and I hate being angry at people because I hate confrontation and the potential repercussions of a confrontation no matter who it's with.
I don't like being being asked all the above questions in the first line, it feels like it's an invasion on my inner privacy, in my head I just think "why should I tell you" half the time if I do have a problem or 'something on my mind' I don't even know what it is that is bothering me and that gets me angry because everyone around me knows how they feel in an instant and they can talk about it in an instant and I just can't do that and they don't understand how I don't understand THAT and I can't do what they do.
I feel like crying, I'm sorry I hate being this person but you guys on here are literally the only people I can think that might even have half a chance of knowing what I'm talking about.
Hey, O. If you need to vent, you know you can always drop me a message (we're connected on here as friends). Otherwise, stay sane, man, and remember what Einstein said: “Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” So, keep moving! Tomorrow is a new day!
Thank you, I'll try to remember that, I forget we're friends I feel a bit better today I went to sleep shortly after I replied I woke up in the same position I went to sleep in I don't think I moved at all haha
I'm glad you're feeling better. Get some lotion on, put on your shades and go for a nice walk in nature. And remember to laugh (at least three times a day). Once in the morning, once in the afternoon, and once in the evening. Three times minimum. “The one serious conviction that a man should have is that nothing is to be taken too seriously.” – Samuel Butler
The award for the best idea of the day goes to O!
Thank you I think I will. I have call with my course mentor in a couple of hours so I think I'll do you what say and find a tree to sit under and watch something funny on my phone :)